Balik Kampung...

Ooh oh oh, balik kampung ~~~

I went back to Penang last two day for 清明. Actually that is my father hometown. LOL!

I skipped my St. John activity and maybe PIBG duty for this trip. It was my first time to skip activity leh. My full attendance gone...

Well, the trip is quite ok for me as i only need to eat, play and sleep. The point here is that i need no to pay for it! Wakaka^^

Ok, we started our journey to Penang on 28/3/09 3.30am. And the first station was the KFC located at Metro Prima. Well, we were there for our so-called supper, or else you want to name it as breakfast also can. They supplied 24hours service. But i want to made a complain! Their service at mid-night is not as good as usual. They dont even prepare chickens to sell. I only got cup of tea. Lot of 'night cat' there for drinks and foods. I saw people 'pakto' there also. LOL!

After the meal, we FINALLY started our journey. And please dont ask me how to go there or what happened during the journey as i slept from the beginning until the end. (Wei, dont think that i'm like a pig because YOU ARE SLEEPING that time also!)

We reached there by 8.00am and we went to the wet market for some immolation(Is it their name?) Then like usual, we went to the temple and those process went on smoothly. We checked in to the hotel after we had our breakfast. RM248 for a seaview room. Mummy said it consider cheap if compare to other. Well, i cant comment much on this.

After having a bath and short rest, we went for our lunch. (It seems like we were eating all the time right?) After the lunch, we went to buy the biscuit. And you know how many people there anot? The people flooded the shop and we queued there for 45mins. And 1 box of the biscuit costed us RM9.50. I'm still wondering why are the people being so crazy for it.

After the long waiting, we managed to get 10 boxes of the biscuit. (Mummy help my aunt's' to buy d!)

Did you switch off your light for the campaign 60 earth hours?

I did it. But the feedback for this campaign in Penang was not that good as i saw all of the restaurant switch on all their lights.

I think for the following years, we should get more candles to prevent 'bad things' to happen.

I waked up at 6.30am for the sunrise. It was my first time for watching the sunrise. Although the view from my room was not that clear, but i already satisfy with it.It was so beautiful and wonderful. I hope for the second time already. LOL.

Get all the things ready and we went home.The traffic was suck. Highways also can have trafficjam. OMG! You know why? Just because of those stupid drivers which drive at the speed of 60km/hr. It is highways somemore! How they got their licences?(wondering)

This was all of the part of my balik kampung trip. Hopefully i can have another trip very soon again. Pic will be upload soon.

Love travel

Love spending time wif family

Love to have rest

Changes...

Lot of changes these days lol...

Kelas jagaan changed... (will i miss those fellows wif lot of db prob? coz can salin nama...)

Zon changed... (i'll miss the peace life in zon 3)

Mentor changed...

My attitude towards them changed...

My feelings towards all of the things changed...

My aim for now changed...

My dream changed...

I'm appreciate for these changes and instead i think i need these changes for my boring life.

I appreciate for the change of zoon. zon 2 is kinda challenging.

I appreciate for the change of mentor. Snr tsh will ok for me. I think he can help me in lot of conflict if he has time for his mentee.

I appreciate for the changes of kelas jagaan as my new classes are both juniors for me. Easier to take care if they could listen to me.

I appreciate for all the attitude that i have now towards all the things. I choose not to be that emo again as i knew many people worried about me.

I appreciate for the dream that i have now. It make me work harder and harder.

AND I APPRECIATE FOR THE CHANCES GIVEN TO ME.

Qiwan

24/3/o9

enjoying the life now.

HELP!

I've been in front of my old old computer since i got an assignment to do. It's an assignment given by snr zk for the video tutorial class since we learned all the functions of the programme.

And i had face all kinds of problem when i tried to finish my assignment. Until now only i realise that my computer really really can being destroy already!!!

1st, I'm facing with the problem which is the speed of my pc to load programme is extremely slow. How slow? It's slower than the tortoise, perhaps the snail? I had waste more than 5 mins to load all of the programmes. It wasted more than 30mins to download the video i want! Oh Gosh! I think i can register for being the most patient people while confronting his/her suck pc and without spoilt his/her pc.

2nd, it challenged me by playing the hang game with me. I had restart my pc for more than 5 times in a day just because the pc hang for no reason! Somehow i managed to control myself from hentam the pc.(hentam pc? i think i gila alr!)

The pc gave me many more problems. But for save my time, i prefer not to write it down.(actually i'm lazy to write). I am wondering now how i gonna hand in my assignment tomorrow to snr coz i realised that the pendrive had not enough space......

T.T who want to change the pc for me? I'm waiting for a new pc!

Sukan 2oo9

LOL, sukan... The first mistake i did was that i forgot to bring my gloves. OMG! I somemore reminded them to bring it the day before lol... Malu ni... So without any choices given, i called my daddy to bring it to me. And the time he went for work was 7.30am, meaning i got to have my gloves at 7.30am. The problem here is that we are STILL IN THE ASSEMBLY GROUND that time. How can i go out with all the prefects and teachers duty there? I need to thanks CKY and Derek for their help, especially Derek which stood at the gate for more than 5minutes. LOL... After many minutes gone, i FINALLY got my gloves. Don't ask me how i got it, coz i also dont know how i went out from the assembly ground.

After helping MH for the attendance, we went for our marching. OMG! The tapak for marching was kinda worst. It makes our shoes became more and more dirty. (Hentak kaki somemore) I dont think i did the best for my marching. I am really tired of it already. I DONT WANT MARCHING ANYMORE! But i'm glad that our team did the best already. For me, WE ARE THE BEST already. After the non-stop speeches, finally the opening ceremony ended. And our team managed to keluar baris without anyone absent. I'm very proud that none of my team fainted or not feeling well. Actually at first. i quite worried about someone will fainted in the barisan, especially those who didnt sleep the night before.

After keluar baris, we went back to F.A.R. (it's stand for first aid room!) And here is the place i want to apologise. That time i want to talk about sth, sth to menaikkan our semangat and also some reminders. But someone ignored me all the while by ordering the members go for the duty immediately. After many seconds gone, i decided not to 'deliver speech' already. Sorry to the junior which i knocked when i walked past. And also sorry to everyone. Sorry to Yenli and Sherilyn because i had use a lame reason to go. I am hurt. Hurt by her action actually. I just want to do my jobs and she as my friend (kononnya) ignore me all the time. She somemore did that in front of all the juniors, seniors and members. I dont understand why she did that actually. After that i heard more about she again. She went back home earlier than us, before the closing ceremony. And the main point is she said that she told me about that the day before. Sorry to tell you, i really dont remember that you told me before. As Yenli said, we did disappoint with her action nowadays. Everything that we want she cant give us on time and she argueed with us somemore. I actually still wondering why she having such a big change. Hey girl, PLEASE change your attitude la... We are waiting for your changes and chances are given LOL.

Back to the sport day. After changed my uniform, i go straight to my duty. Zon 2 canteen leh. It was my first time duty there. And after dutied the whole morning there, i realised that zon 3 is a good place actually. Duty in canteen quite challenging lol. Besides want them to sit properly, we somemore need to halau them to the field, db and dc.

And for this sport day, RED HOUSE is the winner. They still in the 4th placing te day before lol. They got the champion for khemah, perbarisan, sorakan and many many more. Seems like CKY and Joee were hyper happy that afternoon. And for perbarisan, band got the champion. Actually it was a shock news for all. But congrate to them also. ( i want to know what placing did we get!)

After the closing ceremony, we had a meeting. We got quite alot of 'advice' from each zon, ds, db, su, tkp and kp. After that, snr Kai Jian annouced the ajk for teachers day 2oo9. OMG, i got the banner again. Dont know why i always get this lol. Or i should tell them that i scored B- for my art last time. But luckily i have LCH accompany me. And also congrate to Dashenthi, Tze Chien, Jun Yao for being the penyelaras and timbalan. Also for CKY as the 1 incharge of persembahan. ^^

The meeting over at 2.00pm and only that time i realised my key was not with me. I felt like want to cry that time because all my things still in f.a.r and all of them went home already. I had to go to the office and asked for the backup key. I cursed the people who holding my key many times that afternoon. After i returned the key to Mr.Jaya, only Shi Yien showed up and she told me the actual location of my key. But i didnt manage to get back my key at last also due to some technical problem. Hopefully the one holding my key now will not loss my key and will jaga it carefully.

I'm not that good !

After today, i became not that confident alr and it's without a proper reason... It's just a feeling, or maybe because i am very emo now. Emo to myself.

I saw sth today. Sth that may made me not confident as before anymore. I saw her. The way she duty, the seriousness that i still dont have much now. The way she doing works, without complaining and argue. Suddenly felt like i am wasting my time doing sth stupid. Why cant me become like her? If not mistaken, i think this is what the senior want me to find out.

I really dont understand. Dont understand why am i having such attitude. I dont like those people who do things simply, but now i became part of those people already. Why cant i do things with more effort put in?

The same situation applying here. While i'm complaining sth, i always forgot that sth better i havent done yet. While i'm complaining that someone not fair to me, i think i'm also not that fair to others.

It's all the matter of our mind. I really think i need to have a change in myself for now. I did need a change, if not i wont reach my dream. I want to go closer to my dream, but not more far away from it.

I AM HOPING THAT I CAN BECOME A BETTER PERSON.

AND IF I SAY IT, I MEANT IT AND I'LL DO IT!!!

Gambateh! I said to myself.

Balance?

It's a good news that finally we manage to change our uniform. FINALLY we became pengawas tetap... XD

Comments from seniors to me sounds like this : "......you have a great potential. AND WE ARE EXPECTING MORE FROM YOU......" "......don't ONLY show your strength in ST JOHN......"

OMG! Although i know i'm more special compare to others, but senior also need no to say out 1 ma... malu leh... LOL.. kidding only......

Well, back to the title. Balance. You will wondering what's wrong with me? Balance also don't know... Well, the balance I want to mention here is about the balance between lp and st john.

I wondering why... Why all the lembaga i joined manage to see my potential and expecting much more from me? Not only lp expect sth from me, but also st john. Not that i don't want them to put attention to me, but i scare. I scare that i can't do the things well enough and i scare i can't reach the goal that i want.

I knew that i need to be more confident in doing works, but i think i need time to find out the balance point between these two lembaga before i manage to gain my confidence. It's seems like a tough job for me. It's not easy to gain the balance point as everyone is expecting sth.

I promised to many people and even myself that i can, i manage to balance in between the two lembaga. But till this moment, i don't think i reached my goal yet. I just want myself to be fair enough to everything i did, but it's seems like the ruler in everyone is not the same. Fair to everyone and everything? It's sounds like impossible.

Hopefully tomorrow and the days coming will be better. I'm also expecting sth from myself and i think that I CAN DO IT. Gambateh ya!

[Congrate to all of us and thank you all the seniors for being so good to remind me about the balance point!]

Love?

Both of lp n st john

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I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I CAN SAY!

Emo week...

Since last week, i found out that i become more emo... (vern, dun b too happy if u feel tat u get a new partner!)

And last week, it was the terrible week i had ever... Cried several time 4 those unimportant stuff... (Cried in the toilet? Yes i did...) Get angry 4 no reason... Scolded many ppl in a week... (Felt quite sorry 4 them... Sorry!) And many crazy things more...

Dun ever ask me why i being such emo... Coz i dunno the answer 4 it aso... I just felt tat i dun have the mood to handle all the stuff n all the ppl, all the unimportant relations... I'm just want to have a rest and mayb tat's the way i think i can be more free (by chase out all the problems?)

It's a tiring job 4 me to handle all the relations between my friends and i... I really dun know the way to entertain people... N i dun hope to do tat... But the reality is I NEED TO DO IT! Just felt like being fool by ppl... Haiz...

* Sorry if i had waste yr time...

EMO!!!