020811 - .

缘分是很玄的东西。

I was just thinking about someone and just about that i saw her msg in my inbox =P

True friends will always be there, I believe.

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Everything done by yesterday.

TKP3 sounds weird on me, but can't say I am not satisfy.

Just that I am still feeling weird.

Can predict that lot of thing will happen in this coming year, but hopefully I can pass them all

=)

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So yesterday was someone birthday.

I was thinking to be the last one to wish her, but unluckily I was having serious flu yesterday till I fall into comma quite early.

I am sorry, dear. I knew how it feel =(

Anyway, welcome to the 18 club.

You are now legally to do things you want la..

Happy belated birthday again! ♥ =)

260711 - .

So I did sth stupid yesterday ==

I clicked on one link and this lead me to a very good condition.

My computer got virus! =[

Anyway, it's fix now (very efficient) and I got not much affect actually.

Just now got my mentor mentee section and although it's not that awesome like last time but I do got sth.

He told me about who am I and I do know more about who actually I am.

But some points that frighten me now!

Teachers think that I am aggressive?

I knew I am but till teacher knew about it? I wonder..

Gosh, I am really worry about I could not get what I want again.

Higher hope really can made me more pain.

God bless me! Think positive =)

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MINYEN =)

Hey I love you =P

Thanks for being so nice and cute to me everytime when I need you =)

Good luck, buddy!

Happy 18th!

210711 - Calm

So now is actually 11.33pm and I am blogging with the super heavy eyelid @.@

It was few days ago that I had my super unstable and low mood.

Just about these days, how I changed.

Basically, I was in a super duper crazy angry mood on the day the list revealed.

It's still that unfair and everything of my life out of sudden seems so tiny and the list eventually was the biggest part of my life.

Complaining to this and that, statuses and tweets with anger, I tried everything to release my feeling or it should be covering the truth of how failure am I?

I wonder actually why I felt of stress, so emotion, so disappoint and so upset to thing like this?

And I came out with some conclusions. I'll never lie here, believe me =P

Maybe just because of it's really unfair for us in blue, and I get annoyed?

Or perhaps, it does remind me about my past, about how failure was I that time too? Getting mini, tiny posses which in my dictionary is equally to failure and I do admit that I cant never stand for failure.

Or it's also because of I being left out alone again?

I do think so, all of the answer above are actually those which mixed up my feeling and brought me to the ending point.

A greatest appreciation to all those who did listen to my craps =P

I am still that immature.

I am still that impetuous, never think before I do.

I am still that emotion.

And I am childish.

Up to here, I never said that I regretted to post all the staff, to talk a lot of craps with friends. NO I never regret!

Just that I should really re-estimate who am I and how far I still can go with.

As in 18, I perhaps have to do like a 18.

Good luck to me!

Anyway, even I can partially off from the burden of the list event, I still stand on my side that there should be a fair competition among all and with no discriminate to anyone.

Ya I'm in blue, but I'll never regret being part of it.

And to those in my blacklist, all those problems maker, still the same, PLEASE get rid from me or else I'll really fight with you till the end!

放下一切，原来世界真的很美好 =)

但，唯一不放的，仍是对它的热诚，对自己的原则！

160711 - UNFAIR

So the list revealed.

What I expected will never be wrong.

Just that I never expect it to be this worst!

I hate being left out alone.

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It's just unfair.

I knew nth is fair in the world but I just could not stand for it this time.

It's hurt, and this really made a deep scar on my heart.

I do need time for this.

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The reason I wasn't there because I am in BLUE.

It's just too unfair for US!

Not only this time though, I tried it before in form 4 and I once thought I could get used with this but the truth is never.

Why should us be judged in a different way?

Why can't us compete with others in a fairer place?

We just need a a reason, at least one which is more acceptable for us.

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You might said "Give the chance for others to get their marks as well."

But why me?

I do need a chance as well, WHY DON'T YOU GIVE ME?

I don't mind give others the chance, but at least in a nicer way.

It should be in a fairer way, in a fairer competition.

I have my right to fight for what I want as well.

.

Or you will say "We just don't want you be more suffer."

I appreciate the thought of you don't want me to be tired but how you know I can't handle it well?

It is a sweet and warm act where you don't want me to be tired.

I really appreciate,I square, for this thought from you.

But this reason drove me crazy since I was in form 4.

If you really do care of me, just let me have my right to compete but not other ways.

I will appreciate that more!

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Maybe "You are just way too busy!" is the answer?

Even I am busy, but I know when and what I should do.

I can manage my time well and it doesn't bring any conflict for me which to deal with.

I am sure that I am mature enough to handling my time well.

.

Or tell me honestly, I do not deserve it!

I do not have the ability.

I am just a loser in the fair competition!

If yes, I'll shut up now and get lost myself!

Tell me!

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There are rumors about I will put my concentration more in co-curriculum instead of my study.

I wonder where are they from? The PROBLEM MAKER?

Hey PROBLEM MAKER, are you just too free and you need to do so?

If you are too free, I don't mind maybe you can observe me more.

See when do I skipped my classes, when do I ignored my study instead of spread all the sh*ts behind me!

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There are also rumors about I can't work with a lot of people.

Wow, I got many enemies hurh? So a lot of back stabbing.

What I did until I got the name of person which is difficult to get along?

If I accidentally or I really offended you, I am truly sorry!

But GET RID from my life now!

.

I should fight for my right and voice out when I was in form 4.

What I want?

NOT the name, NOT the post, NOT even the marks.

NOT fighting with everyone, NOT making rumors on others.

But a fairer competition.

Not because I am in blue and I lost everything.

I should not tolerate that time, at least a last fight before I completely lost everything.

Or else it will be like now.

I got my hope on it and I fell from the top to the bottom.

I am totally lost now, just like that time.

My confident, my hope, everything gone!

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I do put in my effort.

What I got? NOTHING!

No, it's worst that nothing, I got bad names, I got scar and I got back stab!

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Like what one said, I should get up and fight for what I want.

As no one else in this world will really give a damn about how the world being unfair to me!

I'll fight till the end, DON'T WORRY!

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PS : This post is not offensive if you do not think that you are the main character. If you wanna think in such way, DON'T say that I offend you. Thank you.

PS : I know this will be risky to post this up as I might lost everything again in the end. Thanks for the concern, but I need to voice out!

150711 - Doubt

So it's 12.44 in the midnight now and I am having school later as usual.

I should be either doing my homework or in the sweet dreamland now.

But i did neither of it.

Feeling annoying and irritating right at this moment for no reason.

I am not EMO, but just wish to do sth else.

Out of a sudden, I thought of wanna get myself away from everything.

Absolutely everything that related to me.

Or I should say it this way, I wish I could disappear.

Disappear from everyone that I know and I don't.

Disappear from everything that I like and dislike.

Disappear from the world.

It sounds crazy for me, but I wish to have that even it's just few minutes.

Maybe I will only achieve my inner peace that time?

I better stop dreaming now and continue with my work =P

See ya.

180711 - ♥

成天的不如意。

心情烦躁之时，捎来她的电话，邀我出去。

感谢朋友那夜的陪伴 =)

在709前的一夜，我们7人悠悠地走在公园里。

好久没有如此强烈的感受了。

7人的声音不容轻视，果然我们都宝刀未老 =)

走在公园里，述说着的却是每个人不同的故事。

可见，距离没有将我们分离；我们还是当初的我们……

渴望着下次的相聚，渴望友谊为自己带来的快乐！

谢谢你们，朋友 =)

050711 - Awesome Weekend

So last Sat was the school carnival and what I did the whole day was DUTY ==

Can't and won't complain as this would be part of my job and it's what I choose to be.

My class got our own stall and kinda regret that I did not help out a lot, SORRY GUYS!

Should think of one way to reduce my regret-ness =)

Anyway, congrate to all of my classmate that we got awesome sales and we EARNED!

Hopefully same thing will happen next year!

Went and watch dear play badminton after that but who knows I was too tired till I fall asleep there == Sorry dear =(

I slept for more than 5 hours that afternoon but it still seems not enough =( How piggy am I? Haha..

The next day I did sth crazy~

Waked in the early morning and prepared for outing with dear again =P

We went to Times Square and we both headed to our destination of the day : THEME PARK.

Ya, there is neither typing error nor your sight problem.

WE WENT THEME PARK like this :

I know it sounds crazy when you got your backache, shoulder pain with you and you went theme park.

YESH, I am CRAZY =P

It costs RM43 for adult in public holidays and weekends but if you are a MYKAD holder you need to pay only RM37.

It wasn't cheap, so when you got the ticket remember to have maximum fun there!

This is the map and it shows kinda lot of things right?

But haiz, when we were there, there wasn't that great LOL..

A few of the structure were under maintenance some more ==

Anyway, I got lot of fun still.

What I went through?

Wasn't a lot as I felt uncomfortable after few games I went through.

1. DNA Mixer

Accommodating up to 21 passengers at a time, this crazy gondola loops forward and backwards while tilting at the same time.

I felt like I was the clothes in the washing machine ==

I screamed like I am dying that time @@

Due to my size wasn't big, I kept on knocked my shoulder when I was turning upside down =(

Dizzy + Heart Attack + Crazy + Excited + Frighten + Pain

2. Spinning Orbit

The 48-seater spiralling ride takes you soaring up to 30 metres, the highest peak of the theme park, while rotating at 10 rpm.

It wasn't anything if you are not someone with acrophobia =)

It spins slowly and steadily but still I felt a bit of dizziness =(

Dizzy + Enjoy

3. Supersonic Odyssey

As Asia-Pacific's longest multiple-inverted 800 metre long indoor roller coaster, this 48-seater runs at a top speed of 80kmph.

So it's the roller coaster with super high velocity and you can feel your inertia there!

Screamed not as much like in DNA Mixer but it's more excited than before!

Again, I knocked my leg at the safety belt and it left me a bruise still =(

Velocity + Excited + Crazy + Heart Attack

4. Botanic Drive

Take a leisurely drive around and discover Fantasy Garden at your own pace.

I know I was a bit too old for this =P

Who cares when you have nth to do there and you saw a bunch of teenagers came out from there?

It's cute to honk at others and bang others =P

Childish + Enjoy + Relax

5. Robo Crash

Crash! Boom! Bang! Get a bumper-to-bumper experience with Robo Crash.

It's the bumper car. I drove one car and eventually dear sat beside me.

Crashed with others most of the times and even I managed to skip from crashing with others, I will bang the wall ==

Dear said I can't drive a real car as my driving skill sucks =(

I enjoyed this a lot!

Fun + Enjoy + Crazy

Nothing much else that I went and I missed the Space Attack which swings you 360˚backwards and forward to heights of over 20 metres as I wasn't feeling well.

Looking forward to the next thrilling games! HAHA =P