160711 - UNFAIR

So the list revealed.

What I expected will never be wrong.

Just that I never expect it to be this worst!

I hate being left out alone.

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It's just unfair.

I knew nth is fair in the world but I just could not stand for it this time.

It's hurt, and this really made a deep scar on my heart.

I do need time for this.

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The reason I wasn't there because I am in BLUE.

It's just too unfair for US!

Not only this time though, I tried it before in form 4 and I once thought I could get used with this but the truth is never.

Why should us be judged in a different way?

Why can't us compete with others in a fairer place?

We just need a a reason, at least one which is more acceptable for us.

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You might said "Give the chance for others to get their marks as well."

But why me?

I do need a chance as well, WHY DON'T YOU GIVE ME?

I don't mind give others the chance, but at least in a nicer way.

It should be in a fairer way, in a fairer competition.

I have my right to fight for what I want as well.

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Or you will say "We just don't want you be more suffer."

I appreciate the thought of you don't want me to be tired but how you know I can't handle it well?

It is a sweet and warm act where you don't want me to be tired.

I really appreciate,I square, for this thought from you.

But this reason drove me crazy since I was in form 4.

If you really do care of me, just let me have my right to compete but not other ways.

I will appreciate that more!

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Maybe "You are just way too busy!" is the answer?

Even I am busy, but I know when and what I should do.

I can manage my time well and it doesn't bring any conflict for me which to deal with.

I am sure that I am mature enough to handling my time well.

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Or tell me honestly, I do not deserve it!

I do not have the ability.

I am just a loser in the fair competition!

If yes, I'll shut up now and get lost myself!

Tell me!

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There are rumors about I will put my concentration more in co-curriculum instead of my study.

I wonder where are they from? The PROBLEM MAKER?

Hey PROBLEM MAKER, are you just too free and you need to do so?

If you are too free, I don't mind maybe you can observe me more.

See when do I skipped my classes, when do I ignored my study instead of spread all the sh*ts behind me!

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There are also rumors about I can't work with a lot of people.

Wow, I got many enemies hurh? So a lot of back stabbing.

What I did until I got the name of person which is difficult to get along?

If I accidentally or I really offended you, I am truly sorry!

But GET RID from my life now!

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I should fight for my right and voice out when I was in form 4.

What I want?

NOT the name, NOT the post, NOT even the marks.

NOT fighting with everyone, NOT making rumors on others.

But a fairer competition.

Not because I am in blue and I lost everything.

I should not tolerate that time, at least a last fight before I completely lost everything.

Or else it will be like now.

I got my hope on it and I fell from the top to the bottom.

I am totally lost now, just like that time.

My confident, my hope, everything gone!

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I do put in my effort.

What I got? NOTHING!

No, it's worst that nothing, I got bad names, I got scar and I got back stab!

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Like what one said, I should get up and fight for what I want.

As no one else in this world will really give a damn about how the world being unfair to me!

I'll fight till the end, DON'T WORRY!

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PS : This post is not offensive if you do not think that you are the main character. If you wanna think in such way, DON'T say that I offend you. Thank you.

PS : I know this will be risky to post this up as I might lost everything again in the end. Thanks for the concern, but I need to voice out!