150114 Promises

What are words - Chris Medina

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

Where every single promise I'll keep

Cause what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they're done

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me

And I know I'm meant to be where I am

And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they're done

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

And I'm gonna be here forever more

Every single promise I'll keep

Cause what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

Those promises, are they still alive?

Or they are just words for the good times?

I don't wish to break those promises I made, but I'm a bit too tired to carry this big burden for now. Can we both have a break?

A time gap, to rest.

Forgive me for being selfish, but I don't wish to again, live with the mask on.

At least, I can still keep that promise, I will never hide anything behind.
At least, I leave at your good time, not when you need me most.

250813 - August

This definitely not a good month for me.
I experienced the saddest event once again.
And I just get to know brother to my senior passed away.
Looking at those status they update, I can totally feel their pain.

It's how the reality looks which I always know but never want to experience and feel.
But when time comes, I had a hard time to experience and feel it.

Isn't it sounds funny?
We all know how things will be at the last moment of our life, or maybe life of our beloved.
But we never wanna deal with it. We tried to run away.
However, no matter how hard we run, when time reach, we are all forced to stop.

Building up the mental is never gonna be easy I believe.
But are we going to fall everytime when we meet such circumference? I bet about this.
I never want be cold blooded. But I know if me not going to build up my mental for all these, I gonna suffer it a lot.
I'll still feel sad for every separation, for every goodbye that I have to say.
I'll still feel the heart broken when I can't meet anyone forever again.
But I wish I could train myself to stand up back in a faster mode.

Some asked me whether am I ok yesterday.
I'm shocked.
I thought I covered it well.
I thought I can reduce the pain day by day.
But tears rolled again.
I'm sorry. But I'll be better!

Stay strong people!

Lemon Cheese Cake

Make this cheese cake last week and it tastes nice for me.

Give it a try as it is also =P

Feel free to drop comment =]

Ingredient :

3 teaspoons of gelatine dissolved in 250ml of boiling water.

1/2 tablespoons of grated lemon rind ( 柠檬皮碎 ）

1/4 cup of lemon juice

400g of sweetened condensed milk ( 淡奶 ）

240g of cream cheese ( Philadelphia Branded )

200g of fine sugar ( 细糖 ）

240g of sweet biscuit crumbs ( 甜饼干碎 ）

120g of melted butter

Directions :

1. Mix the biscuit crumbs with the melter butter and press into base of a a springform pan.

2. Chill the mixture in 1.

3. Dissolve gelatine in boiled water. Put it under room temperature for cooling.

4. Add lemon juice and grated lemon rind to the gelatine.

5. Beat the condensed milk until smooth.

6. Mix the cream cheese with fine sugar.

7. Mix the cheese mixture with gelatine mixture and condensed milk.

8. Pour the mixture onto the crumb base and chill in refrigerator for a night.

060710

最近的情绪起伏都很大……

我不够坚强……

发现，已没有动力坚持下去。

不想那么情绪化，但我做不到。

阻止不了那些想法在脑海里漫游……

我的坚强已不再坚强……

对不起。

Holidays Life 4 - 110610

It was my beloved mummy birthday =]

Since promised MinYen and KimKun to let them bake cake in my house, so i invited them to my house that day also since my family members not at home =]

MinYen and Foong came in the morning but KimKun and friends came during afternoon.

How i bake a cake in two different time?

Sorry, I am neither superman nor superwoman.

That's the reason i bake two cake in a day =]

Luckily that recipe given quite small in amount and we managed to finish it all before my family members came back ==

You can had the recipe here =]

Recipe over here can be bake in different design =]

MinYen, Foong and me can cooperate quite well to done the cupcakes.

Hopefully there have another chance to let us bake cake together again^^

Kim Kun brought 2 friends to my house and 3 of them were really not in condition ==

Wondering really how the cake they bake will look like?

Actually the first plan was i will bake one more cake as my mummy birthday cake.

But due to mummy reached home earlier than i thought, i forced to cancel my surprise.

Enjoyed the day really much =]

Short update

Too busy for recently ><

Activity non stop ==

Please be patient for the coming postS =]

Holidays Life 2 - 090610

It was my youngest sister, my cute cousin brother and my cousin brother's father [my uncle] birthday.

It was also my dear MinLi birthday.

Well, quite a lot of people birthday on that day.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY again =)

The whole afternoon was spent at Jusco Metro Prima.

Nothing much to say about it.

The main point on that day - PRIMARY SCHOOL GATHERING.

It was the first gathering after so many years we leave the school.

The dinner should be start at 7 pm, but due to no transport i was late.

When i reached there, JianHong, Foong, KenKe, JunXian, KokLin, TeikMan were there already.

Please do not ask why Foong there, thank you =)

We kept chit-chatting after all.

We started to eat after a long period of waiting.

Two different soup : TomYam and normal soup.

For those who know me well, surely know which one i prefer.

Those who attended that night : Me, MinYen, KenKe, JoEe, Christine, Anndrea, WaiLoong, YuanRong, Giam [ i forget how to spell your name =X ], RongBin, KokLin, WeiKeat, TeikMan, JianHong, JunXian, WaiXiang.

Most of them did not change a lot.

We are still the same =)

By the way, those naughty boys had changed to be gentleman =)

I enjoyed the dinner very much.

Thanks a lot =)

Pic for the day :

Holidays Life 1 - 070610 / 080610

Weeeee =)

The first time in my whole life to have my own salary =)

Went to a badminton match to help out.

At first they told me to be umpire which i did not really familiar with.

Me worried about that for few days.

After that they told me that i might can change to be urusetia if i really no confident.

Wake in the early morning and got myself to the badminton court located beside Brem mall.

All of the players would be students from primary schools.

Although i am a bit taller than them, but still i feel i have not much difference with them.

The bad side of a short people like me =(

My job for the day was only complete the master copy for the badminton match and arrange umpire for different matches.

Me also need to make announcement to let those players got to register and moved them to their game.

It was an quite easy job for me and i enjoyed it very much.

Those players were really 'geng' in playing badminton.

At least they are 100000000000000000000000 times better than me.

Something happened that hurt me there.

When doing the registration, those youngster used to call me teacher although i do not know why.

Here comes the child that hurt me =(

He called me teacher also and so i explained to him that i am not a teacher.

He did not even think after i told him this, he called me AUNTIE straightly.

OMG, i am a auntie? Am i looked so old?

He called SengYi which sat beside me 'GorGor' but me AUNTIE?

It does not sound right to me! Haiz TT

Besides that part, i did enjoyed myself there.

The lunch that SengYi dad bought to us quite tasty just that a bit salty =P

Umpire could get Rm2 for every match that they umpired.

Cause me only help in urusetia part that's why my salary a bit different =)

I got Rm90 in total for 2 days =P

Credit and applause to Seng Yi and Seng Hoo =)

ps : someone driving skill scared me!

Wish?

View panda blog just now.. Title there J's wishes.. And a line attract me very much - Tell me your wish.

Well, what i wish now? I dont really know actually..

Wish to have a new computer? Wish to be with him? Wish to cry?

Or maybe i just wish to have a wish?

moody again

Feel being fool..

Dont know why..

Maybe just a bit tired? Tired of being the one i usually is?

Nth else, JUST A BIT MOODY!

First time

First time to eat CURRY in the school.

Challenge myself!

Gambate!

Emo made you fail!

Just an ordinary day for me. But what changed the day not normal is one of the people around me emo. Just hate she emo, made me emo too. Maybe this show somehow last time me emo and affect people.

Just want to tell you: I love you, but do you notice that? You never never treat me important or should i said i never appreciate what you given me? I am tired, but i knew you are more tired than me, am i wrong? Think so no. Knew that you wont have the chance to read this blog, i was just writing this to express my hard feeling. Am i important? Can you please tell me?

Hopefully tomorrow will be fine.

Graduation 2009

Is the graduation day today for those form 5 and upper 6 students. Went to school like usual but the different is i went for duty but not school.

Nth much to said about the perhimpunan in the morning. But just to tell junyao, i did told u about the assembly thingy! Btw, was that rain a sign of sadness too?

Me not did much today although it was a duty day. Me just chit chatting around and function as a sign board. ZZZ. And the most important we act as MODEL!

Here are some examples: Well, i hvent get the others photo. So maybe will upload as i got them..

To all those form 5 and upper 6 friends and seniors, You guys are leaving me. The feeling is not that good. I am here to apologize if i did anything wrong or maybe you just dislike what i did. I am here to appreciate what you guys had gave me. Those memories will always be with me! Congrats as you guys had pass the suffer life. Gambate ya! Good luck for your coming exam!

They are leavin me alone.

26/10

Add Maths paper = DIE

I just dont wish to argue. Sorry really.

Deepavali

Deepavali holidays = Boring

Awaiting for tomorrow gathering.

14/10

Today having malay paper and english as well. Both essay question, wrote till my hand pain. Seems like i have to improve my time management le, so next exam wont so rush till the last min only finish.

Today english paper, writing makes sense. What is this a? Me really not sure about the book title, but luckily still can get to write a story out.. ^^

About the composition given, me just simply choose the last day at school. What it meant? What it want? Me not really sure, but i did enjoy writing a story about the graduation day. I still remember my primary school graduation. It was so long i didnt go back primary school le since the day i being chased out from the school by the stupid guard..

I miss those days really..

Tomorrow sejarah haiz..

Holidays =)

Having my holidays now and i did enjoy it...

Here is some update..

30 Hour Famine

It was my first time to go and i did enjoy it although i had no food with me for 30++hours. Learnt to appreciate the resources we having now. Enjoyed the show, the performance, but mainly i enjoyed the time spending with friends. It had been quite a long time i didnt have such wonderful time^^

Campfire

It was my first time for a campfire which organised by friends and it had no adults.. The most important is that i was the only girl for it. I wont forget the time spending with all this guys ( most of them are younger than me but yet mature than me! ) They were too gentleman till i had do nothing throughout the whole night. I didnt need to build up the camp, set up fire, catch fish and etc etc... What i did was just barbeque and eat...

Well, thanks guys for treat me so good and thanks for letting me to have such experience and wonderful memories! ^^ I did enjoy it..

Steamboat Dinner

Had a steamboat dinner with my cousins and aunts. At first was not decided to go as i was very tired that time, but last i still attend.. Feel quite ok as i ate a lot..

It's quite warm to stay with families. Family is where i loved the most!! ^^

30 hour famine

Finally i success! =)

Hooray for 30 Hour Famine!

Enjoying the time with you guys! Thanks everyone!

FEEL...

我输了…… 彻彻底底地败了给自己……

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就这样，这样子过了。 Snr们也离开了。留下我们，继续奋斗…… 看着一班又一班的snr们离开，看着他们因成长而离开，真的不知该开心吗？不舍、害怕，种种情绪都叫我不想改变。 是我固执？还是我真的变得懦弱了？能回到从前吗？能继续一起奋斗吗？ 不能忘记我们之前一起奋斗的日子。不能忘记所有你们教导我的事情。不能忘记从前。 能活在过去是一件幸福的事，但我明白这是不可能的。 是你们教会我坚强，是你们教懂我坚持，我不会让你们失望的。 加油吧！祝福你们，同时祝福我们…… Thank you, sorry, we love you all...

p/s : I really dont know what going to happen to me after agm this saturday.. All i loved will gone and leave us.. ×××

我害怕了。 不知道我们的距离会不会更遥远…… 你与我的话题已越变越少，距离感越来越重。 只是隔了几个位置，然而我们的距离就突然被拉远了…… 能回到过去吗？我真的不想再失去任何人…… 永远地祝福你…… 永远支持你……

习惯

原来，那已成了习惯。

习惯有你们的唠叨，

习惯有你们的责备，

习惯有你们的安慰，

习惯了你们的存在。

我们长大了？

我学会了坚强，

我学会了责任，

我学会了团结，

但，

我懂了感情。

能不能不离开？

能不能留下来？

愿每一句的再见代表着重聚，

愿每一句的祝福跟随着你们……