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030212 - End of CNY 2o12

2012-02-03T03:58:00.000-08:00

So here comes the end of the cny =)

How was it for you?

My one doesn't really awesome, but at least it is a warm one =)

During the dragon year, hopefully I can be like a dragon too. Especially for results =)

I don't really working hard till now, wishing that after this 4-days-holidays I could pack up my laziness and being back a ~~nerdy~~ hardworking students =P

Went to MinYen house again like what we did on those past years.

Thanks a lot of inviting =)

Gamble still not one of my strength ==

Anyway, got a lot of angpow this year. satisfy =)

Going to use that money to buy stuff that I want =) A long wishlist which will make my purse a BIG BIG hole.

Lastly, happy dragon year =)

Did this myself =)

Photo by, Minyen

270112 - Boring CNY

2012-01-25T22:01:00.000-08:00

So almost half of the CNY gone.

What did you get at the end of the holidays?

I got angpow, nice foods, nice clothes and ~~fats~~.

After visiting all the aunties and uncles, what I actually realise is that time really flies.

Maybe you really can say: "never mind also even me not visiting them this time, I got next time"; but no one will know whether this next time can come true or not.

I am still staying with my families. I never had a new year without them. Therefore I can only feel the power of aging when I went to visit those aunts and uncles that I seldom visit.

The power of aging is scary. I hate it a lot. I just scare I couldn't take it someday else.

I do wish I can visit them more often, at least not only once in a year only.

So guys, appreciate when you have time to spend with the loves ones.

回家吧 =)

The following is about what the elders think, just take a look =)

From : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_29il6ozRro

It's the Petronas Commercial for last year CNY =)

I <3 U

230112 - Huat Ahh!

2012-01-22T20:25:00.000-08:00

Blogging this before I move myself to my grandpa house =)

It's the first day of chinese new year now =)

Happy New Year peeps =)

Was working hard 2weeks before now and finally it's all done.

Feeling satisfy for that but just a lil too tiring =P

Again Gong Xi Fa Cai everyone =) Huat ahh =)

They said this year is Water Dragon, that's why I wont wear RED today =P

I pray for health =)

110111 - The last 1

2012-01-11T00:05:00.000-08:00

So it had been 1 week late =P

Well, I am now a 19, original without lie.

It's the last 1 for me, and I didn't expect that I am going to enjoy my 100 birthday ==

I didn't have a really grand celebration as the next day is a school day but at least I enjoy it very much still =)

Although it's only a lunch date, but thank you <3

Went to have a lunch at Tao's Cuisine located at Sunway Giza that day as it's what planned.

Seriously sorry as I accidentally reveal the secret plan =P

[Pictures below are grabbed mainly from it's website : http://www.tao-cuisine.com and the web ]

So Tao's Cuisine is basically a restaurant that offer Japanese buffet with full table service.

It means like normal buffet where you can take whatever you wanna eat, but at the same time you can order from the menu too =)

The path that you have to walk through. Seems like the time tunnel for me =)

I love the environment there but some of the others bloggers said that it's not really suitable to snap nice photos as it's too dark.

Anyway, the foods taste quite good =)

Top choice : Crab meat with cheese =) Takoyaki

I am kinda lazy to post more photos as they all looks so tempting and making me hungry =(

Ohya, not to forget there is a chocolate fountain just that the food choice wasn't much.

The service there wasn't bad as the waiters are all so patient. ~~He even wanna help me to refill my ice lemon tea even I say no =.=~~

It worth for a try =)

Thanks a lot to dear that treat me such a nice meal =)

Birthday wish? Be happy.

090111 - Start

2012-01-09T01:28:00.000-08:00

Apart from the new year atmosphere, it's now the 2nd week of 2o12.

So how's 2o12 treat you until now? Mine wasn't bad =P

Just did my renovation on my blog and isssssh, I forgotten to save a picture of the old skin ='(

Nvm I'll do remember you old skin *bye*

Well, using a winter theme for this and I do like it very much =)

Don't worry I wont change my cursor to those snowy cursor. ~~It's annoying!~~

Somehow I really wish that I could once have a white Christmas with my family =)

How romantic and lovely it'll be when it snows <3

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The countdown for new year that day is awesome =)

I do enjoy it very much besides when the rude person-in-charge spoiled my lanterns =.=

It's great count down but Ms MinYen next time please do like what you promised =.= I bathed for so long LOL.

Love the fireworks, love everything about that day =)

I knew 2o12 will treat me NICE.

311211 - End

2011-12-29T09:16:00.000-08:00

Stories in 2o11 finally came to an end =)

I don't like ending and also starting.

Don't you feel it's miserable to do things all over again? And I don't like that too cause I know I'll have hard feeling when lost something =P

Very soon I'll be 19. Gosh, it's the last year that me going to have a 1 in front of my age =(

I am ADULT and I have to bear this in my mind. Me just always forget that I am a grown up and keep bring problems =(

Overall 2o11 treat me quite nice and I know 2o12 won't treat me bad too =)

So my new year resolution will be : BE NICE =)

No matter what me going to have, what challenge me going to handle, BE NICE.

I'll be as nice as I can =)

Anyway, I am looking forward the countdown with my buddies at DPC and wish all of us a

HAPPY NEW YEAR =)

Happy New Year | Forward this Picture

Ohya, my birthday is just few days to go.

I know you know =P

151211 - Origin

2011-12-14T10:26:00.001-08:00

Just back from Port Dickson just now afternoon.

Having a peace and great time with the loves one =)

Pictures will be up real soon as I'll be free starting next week.

Well, few more days and I'll stop my work.

Now till Sunday open for those who wish to visit me.

Thanks to JYao that came that day but sorry too cause not much time to talk =P

Have a look on this comic:

( http://sin.blog.esnai.com/index.html )

I am those who can never balance myself.

I always do everything very EXTREMELY.

Can't blame myself too much as I do prefer working under such condition but pity to those who work with me, a bit too suffer for you guys =(

It's like I can only stand still when I am at the end of the seesaw but not at the center point.

Haiz =(

This can be apply to every part of my life from family to friends to study even to work.

How can I change this? I wonder sometimes.

But I know I won't make a huge change on this.

Everything going back to it's origin soon.

021211 - December

2011-12-01T10:11:00.000-08:00

* Not going to start with time flies, kinda boring start == *

Well, it's already December and I am busy working currently.

One more month and my 18 going to END.

I wonder what big things that I did in this special year?

I got a no-no.

I am still like a child, immature child having my own little sweet time in my own little world.

Nothing had changed just that a bit more obstacles on my way.

I will still cry for pain and complain when I fall.

I will still doing like kids got sweet when I am happy.

I am childish and I know it.

I don't know why, but only in this year I felt that I am so terrible childish ==

I got the unbelievable power to make everything miserable terrible =( *bang head to wall*

When am I going to grow up again?

I wish I can explore more about this world.

221111 - Camp 2011

2011-11-22T01:42:00.001-08:00

Well, me just backed from camp yesterday =)

It's just awesome.

Learned quite a lot and it helped a lot.

Thanks for the concern and the love. I love the strong bonding.

Hero, something that I'll always refer to, just to remind myself about these days.

Thanks for sharing and being so true. It won't be easy.

I love the me that in camp, no worries and fear.

I don't know how long I can stay with this kind of feeling and I wish it stays long and forever.

Though scars left on me won't disappear but I knew how to treat it now.

If I would to change, can you help me?

Promise to update very soon, after me feeling better ya =P

141111 - He & She

2011-11-14T00:15:00.000-08:00

Time is like rocket. Just in a blink of eye, it gone.

Well, today is another special day again.

Today is my daddy birthday yet my sis starts her SPM today.

Will the devil and angle fight? =)

Nothing much to express now.

Maybe last year post will be better? Click here =)

Anyway I do think that HAPPY BIRTHDAY and GOOD LUCK will be the best suit to them.

Nothing else better than sincere wish and pray.

I do hope to stay forever with you, can I?

ILY <3

Ohyeah, we grew to be elder again..

071111 - Month

2011-11-06T22:55:00.000-08:00

It had been almost a month, where I did not update my blog, not even update myself to read others' blog.

I used half a day from yesterday night to just now just to read through every blog that I wished to read =P

Thanks God, I am updated again.

I dare not to on every pages in the past month that will remind me everything about the scar.

I knew I am timid, coward. But it's just a way to protect myself.

I said I'll back to normal, yea, I accomplish my promise.

I am BACK again, although I am not fully recover.

I never know how long do I need to take, but I know I'll never be alone.

I got a flying color result, 3.84.

But I am not satisfy yet as I got this result with the help of the 5%. Without the 5% I think it will be less than 3.67 ==

I didn't do well in my exam, I know.

The most crazy paper is Acc paper as I can't even concentrate.

Can you actually do the paper well when what the others say keep flowing in your brain?

It's really irritating.

About I drop myself one band for my Muet, I am not trying to show off about how well I did,but I just want to make myself to be honest like what my parents taught me.

I will do better I promised!

I did few meaningful thing yesterday =)

I went to become volunteer again, ya, AGAIN!

Me really got lot of happiness everytime I did volunteer work, you can't describe those satisfaction you got sometimes.

I went to help for the TzuChi scholarship for poor ceremony yesterday morning.

It's an easy job as what I did to do is just help for the registration.

The receiver mainly are Indian and you know their name quite long and almost the same ==

However. it helped me to be better in differentiate their names =P

Those indian kids are so adorable! Gosh, their eyelashes is so so so long, I want it! =(

50% of the receiver didn't turn up in the end. I wonder, are they facing problems which make them unable to attend?

Deepest sympathy to those small poor child. They got nth like us, change our school bags, uniforms and everything every year.

Appreciate what you have and don't waste, help those needy!

151011 - Pain

2011-10-15T00:31:00.000-07:00

It's really pain.

Honestly I dare not to breathe that hard now, I worry.

I worry that it's not a dream.

How much that I hope it's only a dream where when I wake up one day, it's not the same like now.

It's pain, really pain.

What do you feel when you know some people do not welcome you?

I feel pain.

And how will you feel when you know people dislike you?

I feel pain.

Then how would you feel when you realise you are becoming immature?

I feel pain.

Lastly, what do you feel when you know most of the people dislike and do not welcome you but they act good to you?

Pain for me.

I knew all this in one shot. And I just knew how serious it is.

I am in deep pain till the tears dropped so uncontrollably.

I just cannot believe that I am that worst and I could not be worse than now.

I knew some people dislike me but I never know the amount is that much.

I knew some people hate me but I never expect you are one of them.

I knew they could not accept me, but I never know it's that serious.

I knew that the way I did my job could not be accept by many, but I never know where is the problem.

Why? Why do I know all this only in this two days time?

Seriously I am in very deep pain and I wish I could escape from this!

Why you guys don't tell me earlier? Why you guys don't let me have the chance to change?

If I could know this earlier, perhaps I will change. And many problems won't happen.

I am way to collapse.

I just could not stand that pain anymore. I am not that strong.

Can I quit? Can I leave?

I know it can't heal and cure the problem and pain, but at least it will be better than now.

I am a failure, the greatest joke ever!

I am not the me again. I am changing to be worse.

How much I wish I will be the past me now.

I won't ask for help this time, please left me alone for sometimes.

I will get myself to be better I promised.

I WILL BE THE ME AGAIN!

To those who are concern, please do not worry about me or else I will feel more worse. I won't do sth that will hurt myself, but I will need sometimes to heal the wound. I will back to normal soon, don't worry =)

081011 - Off

2011-10-08T02:48:00.000-07:00

Just a short updates before me going to bury myself into all the notes.

Cant stand with myself for kept procrastinating *slap*

Anyway, I am currently in a good condition so no worries people =)

Just that due to the exam is around the corner, I am having a bit of high pressure.

So me not going to update that frequent next week and hopefully everything go smoothly =)

I hope to get a better result this time as it will be showed to my parents.

I wanna show them I can do it!

4.0 I am coming!

Oh yea, I saw Jeen Vern drove her mother's van yesterday and I felt that she is growing so rapidly =P

I think I am the only one still stepping at the same place =(

I am going to be more mature!

Good luck and gambate everyone!

051011 - Quotes

2011-10-05T03:51:00.001-07:00

The harder the life, the stronger you'll become. The stronger you become, the easier the life will be.
I can always forgive the people who hurt me, but sometimes, I just can never forget what they did.
Be happy in front of people who don't like you, it kills them.
You never know how strong you are, until being strong is the only choice you have.
Think before you act. Sometimes an apology isn't always be able to heal a heart that has already hurt.
When we forgive and smile to those who have hurt us, we ensure ourselves that we're better than them.
Let haters hate, and lovers love.
The best revenge is no revenge at all. Instead move on and be happy. In the end you win!
Self reflection isn't easy. Embrace your haters; save your energy by listening to their critics. Improve yourself and FLY!
Take problems as God's ways to improve you. Remember: "It takes a ton of pressure to make a diamond!
Treat me well, I will treat you better. Treat me bad, I won't stop to your level.
People will talk about us when they envy us & the lives we live. Let them talk, we affected their life, they don't affect ours.
The one who seems the strongest is sometimes the one who is in most need of a hug.
It’s not about who hurt you and broke you down. It’s about who was always there and made you smile again.

041011 - Spot check

2011-10-03T23:51:00.000-07:00

So many things messed up past few days =(

Yesterday, I just felt how struggle was I in between the 2 parties.

Last time, I used to face it with the others and we were strong, but now?

I am the only one in my class yet the others do not seems nice to me.

Just a simple spot check, but it ruined a lot.

Voices came after that, it's normal; but when I am the only one to stand for that, it's a bit too much!

Just a bit of disappointing with you.

Don't think that I don't know, just that I never want you to be humiliated in front of the others. I am not showing how kind am I but I respect you as someone, so do the same to me.

I can understand why teacher doing this, cause you are her student, when things like this happen, she can't refuse, she is just way too kind.

But can you? I beg you, just don't ask teacher do the same thing again? Did you know that Herman noticed about it? I bet you don't know.

You might make her into trouble and involve in a non-stop shooting game, just because of this stupid act.

I don't want to start the war, but stop blaming my people and voice like you did nth wrong but eventually you did.

Dare to do, please be dare to admit!

Another you. I am going to be mad with you soon!

If I accidentally stepped on your tail, just voice out to me! Stop back stab me and if I go crazy, I can't promise that I won't hurt you!

I can take everything to myself, but stop doing some thing stupid!

If you want to be like adult, respect the others first.

They respect you as 6 formers, can you please respect them as they just doing part of their duties?

We work under instructions, if you feel uncomfortable, go ask those who give instructions!

Before you fight, please make sure you are with the right target!

If you feel annoy after this, come to me and I will provide you the answer that you need.

I just don't wish that I am in the war =(

011011 - 随笔

2011-10-01T06:21:00.000-07:00

这次突然想改用华语写写部落格 =)

我没有忘记自己的母语，只是以华文书写部落格对我有一定的难度。

不是华文造诣不好，而是自身的要求，简单的事情总变得复杂。

***

又有事情发生了，距离上次好像没有很久。

同样的，还是很愤怒，恨不得把他像对待蟑螂般，踩得扁扁的。

果然，我没有很大的进步……

这次事件发生得理所当然，因为到最后我也觉得自己太蠢了。

本是以帮助人的心态，事情演变到最后，却是如此。

我不应该，至少不应该相信你。在你的立场上，我还真的只是无名小卒，不是吗？而另一名，算了，我不想大声地说我不能与他比较。

好心没好报？我不想将事情看得如此悲观……

老师说，助人为快乐之本。

妈妈说，有能力者就该助人。

所以，如果事情重来，或许我还是会如此愚蠢。

算啦，至少某人没事了！看见某人的笑脸，其实真的很满足=)

我答应自己得原谅他，果然成功了！

其实争扎了很久，内心真的很痛苦，几次还真想撞豆腐……

很多人都劝我放下，让事情过去。说，很是容易；做？

佛的说法，他是来讨债的，所以怎样还是得接受……

无论如何，感恩所有曾经帮助及陪伴我的人！<3

***

很感谢你！

因为你，真的磨练了我的心志。

因为你，让我懂得就算小人当道，君子还是不会倒下的。

因为你，我真的学懂了很多！

***

有人问我，为何经历了如此多事，我们还是一直受伤？我们不是应该变得更精明吗？

我想，应该是我过于执着吧？

执着得相信所有人不会一而再伤害我，执着得相信人本是善。

我不想改变，总不能一枝竹打翻整条船吧？

总有人，会全心全意爱我的！

***

带着仇恨的我，就像背负千斤重担，寸步难行。

如今，以羽毛的轻，我飞了起来！

270911 - .

2011-09-27T03:15:00.000-07:00

Just a short update as I am in rush to tuition later =(

Went to be volunteer again last weekends.

Enjoyed the moment that I sacrificed but time used a bit too long till I couldn't finish a lot of stuff in the end ==

But still I will go for charity work next time!

Things really going well these days, but I just couldn't feel the happiness flowing around me.

Emotions conquer me sometimes already, but I still manage to control it well.

Hopefully I won't collapse or burst in anytime! God bless.

Think so I'll have to meet my buddy soon as they can heal me =)

Anyway, I managed to sell 11 Vision just now =) #supersatisfy!

Anyone interested still please contact me =)

I wish I could help my dear so that she won't stress out.

Ohya, Subway is awesome, I just had it!

230911 - Confession

2011-09-23T04:10:00.000-07:00

Facing problem again in duty =( It happened yesterday in front of one class. 30+ people were actually looking at us.

The girl scolded me :"None of your business, it's not your class!" after I asked her to go back to her class for several times.

Yup again my tone was those super loud although I knew teachers were having foods downstairs. I just couldn't control my temper for that continuous ignorance from her. I admit it was my fault for not controlling but she did wrong too.

Continue.

I replied her :"So? GO BACK TO YOUR CLASS NOW!"

She :"Shut up la you, SHORTY."

Hell. The first time ever I got such personal attack which I do mind actually.

Ya, I am short, I admit it and I accept it.

But why using this to attack me when I did nth wrong and she is just 15!

I controlled, but I still replied her with :"Who are you now?"

"Your mother."

"Ohya, auntie?"

She replied with some kind of nonsense and ran away.

I just couldn't stand for this and I was non-stop thinking about it the whole day. I told this to a lot of people that I met and although they felt pity to me, but they asked me not to thinking too much about it.

I proposed this to Jeffrey today and he asked me to tell Mr Herman. So I did.

But my main point was not complaining about her, just that I wished the disciplinary board could help us as many of us facing such a problem.

I chose to forget about that.

Problem came when Mr Herman insisted to take action to her as he said she is rude.

Called her and brought her to Mrs Bavani.

Repeated the whole story since she asked and action taken by deducting her marks.

Anyway she got caught for her shorts by Mrs Goh and her mother was called to school.

How it ended I don't know as I wasn't there.

After went back to class, I was thinking, am I doing this right?

I confused. How if I didn't bring up this issue?

But if I did so, it's not fair to myself as her words really offensive to me.

However it showed like I am childish and not mature which always complaining when I did report =(

Out of a sudden, I blanked out.

I am that helpless, but I couldn't change what I did.

Anyway it ended.

It will be a scar on me that will never shed even with the apologies.

220911 - Capricorn

2011-09-22T01:23:00.000-07:00

【摩羯座怪癖，有没有？】

热爱暗恋；
自卑不喜欢跟人打交道；
有点闷骚，没事喜欢胡思乱想；
失眠或者嗜睡；
笑起来是个孩子冷起来是个谜；
不喜欢虚伪自私的人；
好心肠易被感动；
爱讲道理；
整理癖；
喜欢去没人的地方；
黑白分明；
不爱穿内衣；
常年宅在家。❤

【摩羯座的10个特点】

爱最真挚最持久最深沉。
有时很爱捉弄人。
不喜欢争吵。
有些害羞。
个性强悍不妥协。
无与伦比的迷人性感。
天生的贵族气质和深沉超脱的个性。
很容易被感动。
外冷内热。
有些顽皮。❤

【摩羯座的10大优点】

脾气来的快去的也快；
有斗志，喜欢拼搏；
刻苦努力，想尽办法独立门户自己当老板，老总最多的星座之一；
重感情，讲义气；
别人对他好，定加倍奉还的典型代表；
不计前嫌，容易哄；
单纯没心机；
喜怒言于表，不伪装；
做事雷厉风行，有效率；
天生的统筹规划专家，计划性强。❤

【摩羯座的缺点，你有吗？】

很懒，没事几乎不出门；
爱发呆；
擅长装傻，其实心里都明白，只是不愿意说出来；
与老友只想念不联系；
很情绪化；
双重人格；
有自己的一套原则，我行我素；
有时很糊涂，反应慢半拍；
特别敏感，脆弱；
对自己不感兴趣的人很冷漠，毫不掩饰。❤

摩羯很冷，很多人第一次和摩羯接触，应该都会觉得摩羯像一座冰山。话不多，静静地听着大家说话。但是如果你多接触几次摩羯，你就会发现，原来他也是喜欢开玩笑的，喜欢打打闹闹的。好像一个小孩子，容易哄。❤

摩羯是一个非常单纯的星座。这不是讲摩羯没有智慧，而是说，摩羯一般很少主动有自己的欲望。凭借阅历，智慧，以及第六感就能看透一个人的本性。但是，当摩羯在遇到没有见过的情况下，往往天真的把一切想的过于美好，毫无防备的把自己的全部都展现出来，用心去与人沟通说的就是摩羯这种傻得出气的个性。❤

为自己爱的人，摩羯可以容忍许多，甚至是许多难以想象的事情，摩羯都可以接受！所以被摩羯爱的人，是幸福的！但是由于摩羯的不懂表达，被摩羯爱的人，大多觉得摩羯是两个极端，一种摩羯是自私/冷漠/固执/难以沟通/难以理解/不够温柔/不够浪漫。另一种则恰恰相反，喜欢暧昧，风花雪月，不切实际。。❤

摩羯座是很容易被感动的星座。表面上，他们爱逞强，私底下，很多摩羯是爱哭鬼，他们是不愿意在人前掉泪而已。所以，当摩羯被人爱护的时候，他们会很感恩(不只是感动哦)，并把这些都默默记在心里，也期望能回报别人。从某种意义上来说，这些感动他们的事物是他们能继续相信人性有光明温暖一面的动力。❤

摩羯是一个不懂得把握住幸福的星座，所以爱情往往是坎坷的，曲折的，加上性格的因素，摩羯很难从爱情里体味到幸福感！当然热恋里的幸福一定是饱满的！爱情里的摩羯，勇敢，坚定，执着得难以用任何词语来形容！想要摩羯放弃一段感情太难，几乎可以说是不可能的，除非是摩羯自己决意分手分离。❤

摩羯座也是一个坦诚的人，而且还非常的有责任感。在生活中最有原则的魔羯座，在爱情中却毫无原则，只要细心观察，便可以发现身边的魔羯座其实都附属在另一半的爱情中，随着对方的节奏不断的并且乖乖的调整着自己的脚步。工作上的巨人，爱情上的侏儒，也许可爱的魔羯座就是需要这个平衡。❤

摩羯座的人有时候突然就心情很低落，不想说话也不想动。别人问起，也不知道该怎样回答。也许是因为突然看见的一句话，也许是看见某个物体联想到了什么，也许是从朋友那听来的一件小事，也许什么都不是，很多事情不需要理由，也没有理由。❤

摩羯男的要求比较实际些，与其说挑选女朋友不如说在挑选自己未来的老婆，要懂得温柔体贴，野蛮女友不太可能，又要不失活泼，因为他自己也比较闷。摩羯男可能都不太会说话，或是表达，摩羯男对喜欢的人表现的通常很矛盾，会希望她的出现，出现了却努力表现的无事一般。❤

摩羯给别人的感觉，多是以自我自居，自我为中心，但是摩羯总是为别人考虑，毫不夸张的可以说是面面俱到！但是摩羯不喜欢表现自己，当然更多原因是不善于，所以当别人受惠时，很少有人能够想到摩羯的努力与付出！爱人尤为如此！所以这大大的降低了摩羯在爱情与婚姻中的幸福感！常常是忧郁，偶尔是惊喜.❤

遇见伤痛的时候，摩羯会原谅自己爱的那个人，而且还会很愚蠢的给那个人找到伤害自己的理由.摩羯真的会原谅伤害自己的爱人，不管你给摩羯带来的伤痛是怎么样的巨大，但是只要摩羯还有一分爱你，就一定不会为那99分的痛而说出分手，即便说了，那也一定只是气话，摩羯一定还会回到你的身边，选择原谅！❤

From ⊱⊹星座ღ密语⊹⊰

I am a typical Capricorn =)

200911 - =)

2011-09-20T02:23:00.000-07:00

Well, again, days without updating my blog =(

Anyway, I spent my long weekend in Penang.

Although something happened which make me not feeling well, but I do enjoyed the whole journey =)

Pictures will be on my Fb soon =)

Not going to have a long post about it, but more pictures are coming =P

Cheers!

展开双翅，我要学习飞翔……

130911 - Happy Moncake Festival

2011-09-13T01:19:00.000-07:00

070911 - Weird

2011-09-07T07:42:00.000-07:00

So few days not manage to update my blog.

Feeling strange at this moment as all the feeling mixed together and I just couldn't figure out what actually I feel now ==

Anyway I did volunteer work again last weekend and I will have the next post about that =)

Just realise actually our society is full with all the negative issues which each and everyone of us can't escape from it.

And this society is full with rubbish and parasites!

Why am I so angry?

Here's the story :

Night before yesterday I was so hardworking to do my homework alone while Daddy using the comp. Others went to their own sweet dreamland.

At 12am sharp, my house phone rang. I was the one stay nearest with the phone.

And the most stupid decision I made was pick up the call.

Everyone feel a bit fear when the phone rang at sharp 12 right? As the result all of us read too many horror stories =(

With the little fear that I had, I picked up the call and I heard a boy's voice and I confirmed that he is not someone that I knew. At least he never call to me before.

I used to pick up phones call since small that's why I can recognize many people's voice easily =)

He talked extraordinary soft where I can't hear it clearly.

And with the sound from tv and mum's voice (she woke for the call) I couldn't hear anything.

I kept on repeating "Har?" "Yes?" "Could you repeat?" at first.

And he kept on reply "Can you listen?"

After I cleared all the noise, I finally asked him : "Who are you looking for?"

And he said : "Can you listen to me?"

"Ya, who are you and who you are looking for?"

"Oh, I AM VERY SCARED NOW." ==

Damn you stupid fellow. While he continuing with all the nonsense, I ended the phone call.

He tried so hard just to scare me ==

He really drove me mad and he successfully made me got scared for the whole night.

Luckily I didn't get insomnia or else I will curse him like no one else!

%^**%$^&@#@$%**^%%^%*^*%##!@$

See I said there is a lot of parasite in the society.

If the same thing happen again, I square that I will keep on talk nonsense with him and waste his phone money! *devil*

020911 - .

2011-09-01T09:58:00.000-07:00

It supposed to be a good day with the birthday one.

But it ended up in another way round =(

I felt sorry that you get sick on this super important day.

I knew you suffered a lot as you had high fever, vomit and dizzy.

How I wish I am the one suffering at least you will still have a great day with the others =(

You planned the whole day activities but it turned out staying at home the whole day.

I knew you are disappointed and sad.

Cheer dear, I do wish you can recover soon.

Don't let people that love you worry again, kay?

I promise you that we will go out and have a belated celebration after you recovered.

I'll always be here when you need me =)

❤

010911 - Happy Birthday

2011-08-31T10:25:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

THE SPECIAL ONE =)

❤

270811 - Victorian

2011-08-27T01:53:00.000-07:00

That day, I was forced by someone to SMK Victoria which I actually lost my maybe-can-get 20 marks for co-co. It's a lot!

I quite refused in the beginning and I blamed the one as the one did not allow those who wanna go to go and those who don't wanna go, the one forced them to go.

Anyway, after the visit, what I can said is that me not regretting to go.

Learned and knew quite a lot of things there.

VI is basically a boy school and a cluster school which means students' quantity and quality controlled.

VI is really a good quality school. If you got the chance to see their achievements, you will know.

They told us that there are 1200+ students only who majority are boys and only a few girls in F6.

1200 students and there are only 20 prefects.

1 VS 60. Wow! not really much actually ==

Prefect in our school roughly is 1 VS 70. Our school is huge ==

VI was created by the year of 18++ which means it is old.

What actually we knew there?

The school actually doesn't have so many rules as they are ALLOWED to bring cellphones, liquid paper, laptop and everything they want to school and they can eat in the class.

Envy? More to come.

The school provided free wi-fi to all of them.

According to someone, the teachers are actually using bbm to contact with the prefects when they need them. Personally envy till max!

Go google search in case you don't know what is bbm.

Well, stop about this.

In that school actually the prefects are having a great power.

They all are selected based on they achievements and only F5 are allowed to join.

As usual they have to went through interviews and training.

The Victorians are actually quite emphasis on seniority which means F5 having the greatest power.

The juniors respect the seniors as much as you can think.

And the prefects are the highest among all of them.

Why I said so? The juniors actually dare not to look at the prefects when the prefects are on duty. They only can look down.

In our school? It is in the opposite way =(

And when the prefects asked help from the students, they actually will not say NO no matter how weird the request is.

The way the VI prefects control the students are actually using the dictator way.

They used to shout at the students like how we shout when we commanding in marching.

Loud till actually I cant understand fully what they shouted ==

And the most unacceptable part for everyone of us is actually the punishment part.

Those who are late or didn't wear their ties and others, they will be given punishment on the spot.

They will be punish to run 10 laps at the field, push-up, and others physical training.

The most weird punishment that I never thought will be the 5000 words of essay where the title will be as weird as it can be, ex: "Why today is Wednesday?".

Gosh, how people going to write in 2 days time? ==

Can you actually imagine how scary the prefects are to the students?

Compared to our school, I would say our school will be the heaven =)

Anyway, when the prefects are off duty, they are super friendly to the juniors where they are concern about the juniors.

The students in the school are in a big team and I really adore with their spirit.

They LOVE the school! They do enjoy schooling and no forcing for them to go to school.

This is why they will say : once a Victorian, always a Victorian.

Actually we can't follow much with the system there as if we did so, the parents here will be blaming and complaining. And actually many more problems that we need to deal with if we going to use that way to control the students.

Anyway, I personally feel that those who went to VI became quite aggressive after the visit =P

Keep the spirit people!

That's all for now =)

210811 - Decision 2

2011-08-21T02:02:00.000-07:00

So here's the solution for the question that I provided in the previous post =)

Click here for the question if you miss it.

We should not change the path of the train.

Why? Why not changing the path is a better choice?

Many of us will choose to change the path of the train.

Cause we do think that sacrifice 1 kid is better than sacrifice the whole gang of children.

No one will blame us as everyone will do so.

But do we really making a correct decision?

Do we consider about the feeling of the kid that we going to sacrifice?

What he did actually that make him the one to be sacrifice?

Just because he chose to play alone on the abandon track?

Just because he knew that playing on the operating track will be dangerous?

He is the innocent one and he did nth wrong, but society chose to sacrifice him.

The reality always that cruel. Society always sacrifice those innocent, but those doing wrong?

Just because those making mistakes is in a larger amount?

Besides, if we chose to change the path of the train, the kid for sure will be sacrifice but not run away like what we thought he will do.

Why? Cause he never know that train will be on the abandon track!

Next, when we chose to change the path of the train, we are actually risking the life of all the passengers on train.

We might risking 1000+ peoples' life just to save one gang of children.

Do remember there is always a reason for not using the track.

Who knows maybe the track rust or what so ever?

Don't think that you are great just because you save one gang of children, you might destroying 1000+ peoples' life.

The gang of children actually will run away themselves as they knew since early they should not play at there. So no worries =)

So is the result surprise you? I do.

We always think that we do consider about everything, but sometimes we will still miss out something.

We felt that choosing to change the path of the train will not be wrong since everyone choosing to do so.

But sometimes, majority doesn't mean correct and minority doesn't mean wrong. Don't feel scare when you are the outstanding one.

Stand out and voice out your opinion.

I do hope this question can make you who are reading realise of something as it did slap me up =P

Think wise and think third people!

200811 - Decision

2011-08-20T03:10:00.000-07:00

Everyone has to make decisions.

Tons of decision to be made and all these affect our next steps and future.

Do you really make a correct decision?

Do you ever regret with the decision made?

Or you will follow others' decisions most of the time?

Here the scenario that my teacher gave us for us to make a decision:

There are two trains railway tracks here.

And one gang of children playing there.

Only one of the them chose to play on the abandon track and the others chose to play on the operating one.

The train came. And you are standing at the place where you can change the path of the train.

Will you change it to the not operating track or let it be on the normal way?

The train cant be stopped and you have only a few seconds to make the decision either change or not.

So what's your answer? Think about this and be concern about the consequences =)

There must be an answer =P

I will post the answer tml =P

190811 - =)

2011-08-19T05:08:00.000-07:00

Life went kinda smooth and I do enjoy it very the much =P

After next week it will be my school holidays.

Urgh, 18 d still waiting for school holidays == macam kanak-kanak.

Hope that I can truly have a rest this holiday.

Like what I said before, I kinda satisfy with my monthly test result.

I got 3.67 =) But this test consider an easy one, so nth to celebrate.

I got band 3 for my Muet this time. Issh, just that 8 marks more and I will get band 4.

Have to put in more effort d.

I will maintain the results throughout the year!

I just wanna prove that even I am in blue, I can still manage my study!

Dont know why my expenditures for these few months were so high.

I didn't manage to save my money and I spent almost all of my salary =(

Have to control myself starting next month d since I wanna change my cellphone *wink*

Although money is not everything, but everything need money ==

Stop spending!

I love you~~~

That's all for now since I have nth much to share =P

140811 - =)

2011-08-13T22:48:00.000-07:00

I WILL BE SOMEONE!

IN THE FUTURE!

120811 - Y

2011-08-12T04:47:00.000-07:00

Days gone again.

Time really flies and I can't really cope with this still..

Things happen and go every moment and I grow eventually.

I wish I could do even better, at least no harm to others.

Good luck to me, to all =)

Well, my life went back to normal since Monday.

I do angry for what I got, but after all, I can't change it as well.

I did revenge or should say I take my actions for this.

I knew I did nth wrong, at least I did sth that beneficial to the coming generations.

Like what all said, life is unfair, I knew this since long, but now I believe about it.

It's always that unfair no matter how hard you work, how much you did.

However, I am glad with the truth. I knew someone else there knew my ability and trust me.

Thanks!

Something cheer me up these days, MY RESULTS!

Although I am not getting like A++++ for all the subjects, and it's just a monthly test, but I do satisfy with everything I got.

I am glad and regret at the same time.

I should take art since f4, maybe I could score more than 7A's? I really enjoy study now!

Opps, did I say I enjoy study? I think I am crazy =P

I do what I said!

Love.

080811 - Again

2011-08-08T01:55:00.000-07:00

Damn!

Sorry for started this in this way =(

But again because of I am BLUE, I got nth again!

Truly disappointed with them and myself =(

Nevermind, I can't do much on this.

But I hate you!

Not going to blog much but will be doing this soon for the 30 Hour Famine and others.

I can't have subway today =(

020811 - .

2011-07-31T00:02:00.000-07:00

缘分是很玄的东西。

I was just thinking about someone and just about that i saw her msg in my inbox =P

True friends will always be there, I believe.

***

Everything done by yesterday.

TKP3 sounds weird on me, but can't say I am not satisfy.

Just that I am still feeling weird.

Can predict that lot of thing will happen in this coming year, but hopefully I can pass them all

***

So yesterday was someone birthday.

I was thinking to be the last one to wish her, but unluckily I was having serious flu yesterday till I fall into comma quite early.

I am sorry, dear. I knew how it feel =(

Anyway, welcome to the 18 club.

You are now legally to do things you want la..

Happy belated birthday again! ♥ =)

260711 - .

2011-07-26T01:35:00.000-07:00

So I did sth stupid yesterday ==

I clicked on one link and this lead me to a very good condition.

My computer got virus! =[

Anyway, it's fix now (very efficient) and I got not much affect actually.

Just now got my mentor mentee section and although it's not that awesome like last time but I do got sth.

He told me about who am I and I do know more about who actually I am.

But some points that frighten me now!

Teachers think that I am aggressive?

I knew I am but till teacher knew about it? I wonder..

Gosh, I am really worry about I could not get what I want again.

Higher hope really can made me more pain.

God bless me! Think positive =)

***

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MINYEN =)

Hey I love you =P

Thanks for being so nice and cute to me everytime when I need you =)

Good luck, buddy!

Happy 18th!

210711 - Calm

2011-07-21T08:32:00.000-07:00

So now is actually 11.33pm and I am blogging with the super heavy eyelid @.@

It was few days ago that I had my super unstable and low mood.

Just about these days, how I changed.

Basically, I was in a super duper crazy angry mood on the day the list revealed.

It's still that unfair and everything of my life out of sudden seems so tiny and the list eventually was the biggest part of my life.

Complaining to this and that, statuses and tweets with anger, I tried everything to release my feeling or it should be covering the truth of how failure am I?

I wonder actually why I felt of stress, so emotion, so disappoint and so upset to thing like this?

And I came out with some conclusions. I'll never lie here, believe me =P

Maybe just because of it's really unfair for us in blue, and I get annoyed?

Or perhaps, it does remind me about my past, about how failure was I that time too? Getting mini, tiny posses which in my dictionary is equally to failure and I do admit that I cant never stand for failure.

Or it's also because of I being left out alone again?

I do think so, all of the answer above are actually those which mixed up my feeling and brought me to the ending point.

A greatest appreciation to all those who did listen to my craps =P

I am still that immature.

I am still that impetuous, never think before I do.

I am still that emotion.

And I am childish.

Up to here, I never said that I regretted to post all the staff, to talk a lot of craps with friends. NO I never regret!

Just that I should really re-estimate who am I and how far I still can go with.

As in 18, I perhaps have to do like a 18.

Good luck to me!

Anyway, even I can partially off from the burden of the list event, I still stand on my side that there should be a fair competition among all and with no discriminate to anyone.

Ya I'm in blue, but I'll never regret being part of it.

And to those in my blacklist, all those problems maker, still the same, PLEASE get rid from me or else I'll really fight with you till the end!

放下一切，原来世界真的很美好 =)

但，唯一不放的，仍是对它的热诚，对自己的原则！

160711 - UNFAIR

2011-07-15T06:02:00.000-07:00

So the list revealed.

What I expected will never be wrong.

Just that I never expect it to be this worst!

I hate being left out alone.

It's just unfair.

I knew nth is fair in the world but I just could not stand for it this time.

It's hurt, and this really made a deep scar on my heart.

I do need time for this.

The reason I wasn't there because I am in BLUE.

It's just too unfair for US!

Not only this time though, I tried it before in form 4 and I once thought I could get used with this but the truth is never.

Why should us be judged in a different way?

Why can't us compete with others in a fairer place?

We just need a a reason, at least one which is more acceptable for us.

You might said "Give the chance for others to get their marks as well."

But why me?

I do need a chance as well, WHY DON'T YOU GIVE ME?

I don't mind give others the chance, but at least in a nicer way.

It should be in a fairer way, in a fairer competition.

I have my right to fight for what I want as well.

Or you will say "We just don't want you be more suffer."

I appreciate the thought of you don't want me to be tired but how you know I can't handle it well?

It is a sweet and warm act where you don't want me to be tired.

I really appreciate,I square, for this thought from you.

But this reason drove me crazy since I was in form 4.

If you really do care of me, just let me have my right to compete but not other ways.

I will appreciate that more!

Maybe "You are just way too busy!" is the answer?

Even I am busy, but I know when and what I should do.

I can manage my time well and it doesn't bring any conflict for me which to deal with.

I am sure that I am mature enough to handling my time well.

Or tell me honestly, I do not deserve it!

I do not have the ability.

I am just a loser in the fair competition!

If yes, I'll shut up now and get lost myself!

Tell me!

There are rumors about I will put my concentration more in co-curriculum instead of my study.

I wonder where are they from? The PROBLEM MAKER?

Hey PROBLEM MAKER, are you just too free and you need to do so?

If you are too free, I don't mind maybe you can observe me more.

See when do I skipped my classes, when do I ignored my study instead of spread all the sh*ts behind me!

There are also rumors about I can't work with a lot of people.

Wow, I got many enemies hurh? So a lot of back stabbing.

What I did until I got the name of person which is difficult to get along?

If I accidentally or I really offended you, I am truly sorry!

But GET RID from my life now!

I should fight for my right and voice out when I was in form 4.

What I want?

NOT the name, NOT the post, NOT even the marks.

NOT fighting with everyone, NOT making rumors on others.

But a fairer competition.

Not because I am in blue and I lost everything.

I should not tolerate that time, at least a last fight before I completely lost everything.

Or else it will be like now.

I got my hope on it and I fell from the top to the bottom.

I am totally lost now, just like that time.

My confident, my hope, everything gone!

I do put in my effort.

What I got? NOTHING!

No, it's worst that nothing, I got bad names, I got scar and I got back stab!

Like what one said, I should get up and fight for what I want.

As no one else in this world will really give a damn about how the world being unfair to me!

I'll fight till the end, DON'T WORRY!

PS : This post is not offensive if you do not think that you are the main character. If you wanna think in such way, DON'T say that I offend you. Thank you.

PS : I know this will be risky to post this up as I might lost everything again in the end. Thanks for the concern, but I need to voice out!

150711 - Doubt

2011-07-14T09:37:00.000-07:00

So it's 12.44 in the midnight now and I am having school later as usual.

I should be either doing my homework or in the sweet dreamland now.

But i did neither of it.

Feeling annoying and irritating right at this moment for no reason.

I am not EMO, but just wish to do sth else.

Out of a sudden, I thought of wanna get myself away from everything.

Absolutely everything that related to me.

Or I should say it this way, I wish I could disappear.

Disappear from everyone that I know and I don't.

Disappear from everything that I like and dislike.

Disappear from the world.

It sounds crazy for me, but I wish to have that even it's just few minutes.

Maybe I will only achieve my inner peace that time?

I better stop dreaming now and continue with my work =P

See ya.

180711 - ♥

2011-07-11T02:07:00.000-07:00

成天的不如意。

心情烦躁之时，捎来她的电话，邀我出去。

感谢朋友那夜的陪伴 =)

在709前的一夜，我们7人悠悠地走在公园里。

好久没有如此强烈的感受了。

7人的声音不容轻视，果然我们都宝刀未老 =)

走在公园里，述说着的却是每个人不同的故事。

可见，距离没有将我们分离；我们还是当初的我们……

渴望着下次的相聚，渴望友谊为自己带来的快乐！

谢谢你们，朋友 =)

050711 - Awesome Weekend

2011-07-05T01:04:00.000-07:00

So last Sat was the school carnival and what I did the whole day was DUTY ==

Can't and won't complain as this would be part of my job and it's what I choose to be.

My class got our own stall and kinda regret that I did not help out a lot, SORRY GUYS!

Should think of one way to reduce my regret-ness =)

Anyway, congrate to all of my classmate that we got awesome sales and we EARNED!

Hopefully same thing will happen next year!

Went and watch dear play badminton after that but who knows I was too tired till I fall asleep there == Sorry dear =(

I slept for more than 5 hours that afternoon but it still seems not enough =( How piggy am I? Haha..

The next day I did sth crazy~

Waked in the early morning and prepared for outing with dear again =P

We went to Times Square and we both headed to our destination of the day : THEME PARK.

Ya, there is neither typing error nor your sight problem.

WE WENT THEME PARK like this :

I know it sounds crazy when you got your backache, shoulder pain with you and you went theme park.

YESH, I am CRAZY =P

It costs RM43 for adult in public holidays and weekends but if you are a MYKAD holder you need to pay only RM37.

It wasn't cheap, so when you got the ticket remember to have maximum fun there!

This is the map and it shows kinda lot of things right?

But haiz, when we were there, there wasn't that great LOL..

A few of the structure were under maintenance some more ==

Anyway, I got lot of fun still.

What I went through?

Wasn't a lot as I felt uncomfortable after few games I went through.

1. DNA Mixer

Accommodating up to 21 passengers at a time, this crazy gondola loops forward and backwards while tilting at the same time.

I felt like I was the clothes in the washing machine ==

I screamed like I am dying that time @@

Due to my size wasn't big, I kept on knocked my shoulder when I was turning upside down =(

Dizzy + Heart Attack + Crazy + Excited + Frighten + Pain

2. Spinning Orbit

The 48-seater spiralling ride takes you soaring up to 30 metres, the highest peak of the theme park, while rotating at 10 rpm.

It wasn't anything if you are not someone with acrophobia =)

It spins slowly and steadily but still I felt a bit of dizziness =(

Dizzy + Enjoy

3. Supersonic Odyssey

As Asia-Pacific's longest multiple-inverted 800 metre long indoor roller coaster, this 48-seater runs at a top speed of 80kmph.

So it's the roller coaster with super high velocity and you can feel your inertia there!

Screamed not as much like in DNA Mixer but it's more excited than before!

Again, I knocked my leg at the safety belt and it left me a bruise still =(

Velocity + Excited + Crazy + Heart Attack

4. Botanic Drive

Take a leisurely drive around and discover Fantasy Garden at your own pace.

I know I was a bit too old for this =P

Who cares when you have nth to do there and you saw a bunch of teenagers came out from there?

It's cute to honk at others and bang others =P

Childish + Enjoy + Relax

5. Robo Crash

Crash! Boom! Bang! Get a bumper-to-bumper experience with Robo Crash.

It's the bumper car. I drove one car and eventually dear sat beside me.

Crashed with others most of the times and even I managed to skip from crashing with others, I will bang the wall ==

Dear said I can't drive a real car as my driving skill sucks =(

I enjoyed this a lot!

Fun + Enjoy + Crazy

Nothing much else that I went and I missed the Space Attack which swings you 360˚backwards and forward to heights of over 20 metres as I wasn't feeling well.

Looking forward to the next thrilling games! HAHA =P

240611 - June Celebration [ Part 2 ]

2011-06-24T03:30:00.001-07:00

June is so nice~~

Hopefully every month will be like this too!

So I shall continue with the celebration in the early June.

June 9, 2011

It was my youngest sis birthday =)

Went to Pizza Hut for dinner to fulfill her wish.

Child is easy to be satisfied compared to elder.

It's not nice although it costs high =(

It's as hard as a rock =(

June 11, 2011

2 days later after my sis birthday, it was my mum birthday =)

This is why I always broke on middle of June, TOO MANY BIRTHDAYS!

But as long as everyone's happy, me don't mind for not spending much too~

Dad brought us to Sunway Hotel for the buffet dinner as celebration.

60+ for one and children half price =)

Overall, the foods for me were still OK only and the choices were not that many as I thought =(

Anyway, I love the environment =)

We were in Atrium Cafe and ya the Hong Kong Wanton Noodles is awesome =)

Dad said Sun & Surf Cafe will be a better choice but too bad it was under renovation =(

Check this out : http://kualalumpur.sunwayhotels.com/eat/default.aspx

The melt ice cream ==

I LOVE these!

Bought a pie as the cake for sis still in the fridge that day =)

And this taste nice!

Sweet =P

Done Part 2 and coming soon Part 3 =P

Sorry for the low quality of pic as I used only phone to take the photos =(

180611 - June Celebration [ Part 1 ]

2011-06-17T10:01:00.000-07:00

It's mid June now and it's like WOW wth time flies so fast? TT

June, it's supposed to be a good month to me as lot of celebrations here.

Until now it's still very nice to me, hopefully problems wont come to me in coming half month *pray hard* =)

So it's all about celebrationS here =)

May 29, 2011

It was the early birthday celebration with my aunt =)

She used to celebrate her birthday with my family these years, don't know why also =P

Anyway, I was not at home that time as I followed my parents out that day.

Slices of cake from Secret Recipes.

Why so weird? Can try out more flavour she said =P

Simply like the durian one =P

The one =)

Birthday girl with her husband =)

I told you I wasn't there =(

Anyway, wish my aunt always happy there =)

Dumpling Festival 2011

I got not much feeling with the dumpling festival as I don't like to eat dumpling.

I so-called hate the sticky sticky rice ;(

But this year mummy made quite a lot of dumpling as she felt proud that she can made prefect shape of dumpling (how cute is my mummy)

My centre organised class in conjunction with the dumpling festival as well.

Home made dumpling by mummy.

10 in a bunch and mummy was proud that she successfully to wrap them in prefect shape =)

These were the mini size one =)

My sister did this in the class. Not bad too.

However, I did the most embarrassing thing there.

Me cant even wrap one dumpling successfully without mummy's help at first =(

Wrap and unwrap and wrap and unwrap TT

Anyway, me still manage to finish one which is super ugly at last =P

Don't judge a book by it's cover. Believe me it's ugly!

The egg which can stand by it's own! Try this out!

After trying hard, my mummy manage to make it but me failed =(

So it's all about now. I am sleepy =P

Will done the rest soon =) STAY TUNED!

090611 - Holidays

2011-06-03T20:51:00.000-07:00

Well this is all about my holidays.

Gosh, I am kinda exhausted now but it's a nice holiday =)

Holidays are here at a suitable time for me =)

Me can just release what ever negative in me to reach my inner peace* KungFu Panda 2

Me gonna make a summarize or else it's a bit too long.

6M 2005

Me went back to my primary school like almost every morning last week to fetch my lil sis.

It recalled back a lot a lot of my memories there.

My entire primary school life was spent with all of them in the photo =)

They are super and I still remember how childish we were sometimes.

Good luck to you all, my friends =)

* My previous look is tooooooooo ****, so haha ignore me =P

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Went to watch Kung Fu Panda 2 as well =)

It's kinda nice for me and I enjoyed it very much =)

I am practicing hard for my inner peace =P

Furious Five

I like Tigress =)

Shifu Lord Shen

Watch it if possible if you love cartoon =)

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Went to the bookfair in The Mines too.

However I bought nothing and I do feel the bookfair was not that grand like previous year.

The first and ever time that I don't wish to hanging around there ==

Anyway, it's over now.

----- So it's my lil sis birthday today =)

Happy birthday the small small one =P

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I'm not going to emo again

I PROMISED

270511 - HolidayS

2011-05-27T04:56:00.000-07:00

After half a month, FINALLY I am here again =)

Superb busy till I cant online sometimes.

But well I am kinda enjoy my life now =)

And haha, holidays here! Date me!

Experienced a lot in this half a month.

Mixed feelings and I was like in a roller coaster, going up and down.

Sth unpleasant happened to me this few days again but after all I know there are all obstacles for me.

Hope God bless me for getting energy to go through everything =)

Credits to dear for listening to me every time and I calmed a lot now.

Kai Yan went to Pahang d and hope she is doing well there. Kinda miss her =(

Kevin went to Shah Alam also and ya I lost someone to gossip with d =(

Hope both of them doing great and be charm as they were always!

After form 5 is really a tough time for me.

Everyone that I close with is leaving to here and there for own future.

Quite heavy feeling but ya it's an end for our friendship and I do believe we can gone through everything!

I should fly high in my own parts too for myself, for my dream!

Fighting spirit flaming in the air XP

----- Teachers' day on yesterday and today was Pn Au's retirement.

Kinda miss the moment working with the team to make every event a success.

I am thinking go back to my place and work with the new team.

But this is not the final decision yet, wish I could make up my mind in this holidays.

And wish so I won't regret for whatever decision I made.

Life is full with choices and I am at the middle of the junction now which I had been here before when I was form 4.

Going with the old roads or not? I know what are the consequences.

Anyway, the two events were kinda success. Great job kbianS!

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Listen to the song "Can You Feel The Love Tonight" quite often in school nowadays.

Miss the time when 5KianS practiced hard for the competition.

Although different people playing the different version nowadays, but still I think our version is the best!

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Went through the orientation early of this week.

Although my team wasn't the best team but I do feel glad that we gone through it also.

At least we didn't give up.

Played the titanic on stage but it didn't turn up as what we want, but luckily it wasn't the worst.

Met my primary school friend Kishen again in school!

He is in physic class now but I know we got lot plenty of time to work with again. Looking forward to work with this fellow as he is somehow awesome too =)

----- 人生就像风车，遇到对的时机就会转个不停;

时机走了，也就慢了下来。

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当独行侠不再独行，

他会习惯群居…

回到独行，还可能吗？

110511 - Emo

2011-05-11T03:32:00.000-07:00

Well you are in my class now but still kinda a lot for us to struggle.

Hopefully everything goes well and smooth in coming days.

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Well, as my title, ya again and again I die.

Don't know why these days just feel like I got no friends anymore.

I am still can't mix well with majority of my classmates.

And the old friends are all like went missing on the earth surface ==

Gosh, me super miss the time I do enjoy my life with everyone.

Someone update me can a?

I just dislike the feeling being left out and isolated like I am at the North pole =(

Date me out please!

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Don't know why, me just still very mind about what someone said on that day.

Hey please can't you just listen to what I said and at least let me finish what I wanted to say?

I can't stand for it and I need no to do so PLEASE!

Me not necessary to follow what you want and I am not somebody else that you think you can climb up till my head!

It's not a big matter at beginning but hey who you think you are to threaten me? Annoying till the max!

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Anyway, I am now a part time tuition teacher credit to Mr and Mrs. Ng =P

Teaching the two little cute girls is somehow a tough job as I got no experience at all.

Hope that I can cope with it as soon as possible but well me actually started to enjoy teaching them.

They are cute somehow =]

Got incomes again =P

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Overall beside me being super emo, actually I am still quite enjoy my life recently =]

Hoping for a better tomorrow still =)

ps : I am not meant to offend anyone and if I do, I apologize here.

Pps : Don't think too much and ya you are not that important until I will write bad about you here!

080511 - Happy Mama Day

2011-05-07T23:44:00.000-07:00

So lot of things happen in this week.

Anyway what happened is already the past and so let's fight for day coming! *Since when me be so positive? haha =)

Well, back to the topic.

HAPPY MAMA DAY!

Since small girl, me don't really like to express my love to my parents.

Don't know why also. Shy maybe?

I would like to make changes every year but nth had change till now TT

Wish I could change asap lol.. Haha =P

Mummy, I love you =)

010511 - My Neighbour

2011-05-01T08:21:00.000-07:00

So actually me not really wanna post this but ya I should blog about this so that I wont do the same thing again.

On Saturday sunny morning, me and L went for an outing and he was the driver of the day.

He fetched me in front of my house and soon he realised that he cant turn out as he parked the car a bit too near with the car in front aka my neighbour's old car (Car A) .

And so he need a reverse to make things turn right. It sounds so normal and nth special right?

BUT! Here came the problem. (The BUT always come out when we are paying less attention to it.)

The road outside my house is not like normal road. It is a bit like slope.

So for a newbie driver who driving a manual car, it's normal for accident to happen as you might let your car slide down easily!

Back to the story, L tried to reverse for the first time but it failed and his car now was nearer to car A.

He started to be a bit panic and nervous as he found out that his car was sliding downwards instead of moving backward.

After all, he had a second try. And the same thing happened again.

His car now was more nearer with car A and the distance between the two cars was too close until I think there was only few cm distance like this : I am not joking! Luckily he got his brake on time otherwise we would probably heard 'BANG'.

Here come the climax!

When we both were discussing how to solve this problem as he really unable to continue it again alr, here came my neighbour (B).

She was a nice girl in my opinion for last time, a mature girl who teaching tuition in XX tuition center now with her bf who also a tuition teacher at the same place. Well, I got nth with her.

So B stood beside the car and as a educated girl, I opened up the window for her. (This was the most wrong decision ever!)

She started the conversation (Quarrel more suitable I think) like this with the super high pitch and loud sound :

* The conversation below was translated from mandarin to english for convenience. It had being summarize at some point since I could not fully memorize the conversation. But I swear I would never overstate the real condition and it is THE TRUTH!*

B : Hey, can you please reverse your car a bit faster?

L : I could not do it.

B : (Did not heard) You better be fast. I wanna watch you until you finish reverse. Even you bang also I must be here otherwise if I went in to my house I cant watch when you bang my dad car. (She seems so EXCITED to let us bang the car?!)

Me : But he could not reverse now. He could not do it.

B : What you meant that he can't do it?

L : I can't reverse my car and I need help. Maybe can we ask your dad to help us?

B : What?! You should know how to reverse the car but not ask other to help you! I don't know how to drive so I can't help you and my dad is sleeping now. It is impossible to wake him up just to help you.

Silence.

B : You better do it fast!

L asked me to release the hand brake in the car and he will try to push the car from front ==

I know it sounds a bit weird and stupid ==

I refused to do so and so I was quarreling with L. If I do release the brake, I can ensure that L's legs will sure hurt and bang car A!

B : (Talk to me) You come down la! If not how he going to push the car?

Does B actually have common sense I wonder?

Me said nth again and B was still continue to mumble.

My sister appeared at the door and yell : Sis, what happen?

B : He can't reverse his car and he wants my dad to help which is impossible.

Sis : Why can't you tolerate with him and lend a hand to him since he can't do it? You should be tolerance what!

B : Why I should tolerate with him? Why it is related to me? Non of my business! He should learn!

Sis : Why you just can't think from his perspectives? He is new. And actually it is not only his problem. Your dad's car also always park until my house area and sometimes it occupied half of the main road too!

B : He should learn.... (B kept on repeating he should learn, my dad is sleeping, etc etc )

Meanwhile, I went to get help from another neighbour which is a Malay. I was trying to ask him to help me to reverse the car and end the quarrel as fast as possible.

But stupid, I think he could not understand what I said as he replied me with "Hurh" only. ==

Sooner, while my sis was still quarreling with B, B's family members went out.

Her dad : What happen?

B : ..... (I don't remember what she said, but she was still shouting )

After knowing what happen, do you know what her dad did?

Well, he went straight to our car and just reversed it without saying anything.

This eventually ended my story.

After you read this sounds interesting story, what you gain from it?

Well, first of all, I got to know that my neighbour was actually CRAZY! She since the

beginning was actually scolding us for nothing. No accident happen, no car got bang together, and nth related to her! Maybe she just wanna release her stress I think?

Secondly, I just realised that all of my neighbour have super ear and their hearing got no problem for sure! Almost all my neighbour went out to see what B is doing. But no one actually came and help. This shows the reality isn't it?

Third, I found out that actually I do feel embarrassing for being in such condition. I do wonder why B didn't feel the same as me? And well, I do think I did the best to show my manners and my education level as I never ever shout back to her! Well done and great applause to myself =)

Forth, I can super sure that my sister is the best after all! I actually asked her why she will quarrel with B and she said just because she saw that I being scolded. Super touch and ya I love you my sis =)

Fifth, DO THINK TWICE NEXT TIME WHEN YOU DO STH! I heard that B got scolded from her parents after that == Do not do sth stupid that can eventually lower your status! A tuition teacher scold teenagers for can't park their cars nicely? It sounds stupid.

Do leave comments to let me know what do you think =) TQ

300411 - Updates

2011-04-29T10:30:00.001-07:00

Wow, just realized that me half of a month did not update hurh..

Form 6 life is not really super busy like what I had last time but it's consider busy too.

Busy with koko? No please! I am just busy with my study plus homework and also my long long rest time =P Form 6 is tiring what!

Anyway, in this 2 weeks time what I did?

I went to KaiYan belated surprise birthday party last Sunday which only a few ppl attended.

GREAT and APPLAUSE for those who cant attend at the last moment =X

Anyway I did enjoyed myself fully that day and hey please do remember our promises =)

Looking forward to the next gathering before KaiYan go for Matriculation.

Talked about Matriculation, well I did not get the offer.

It does bring me a dozen of disappointment and well I am now doing for the appeal stuff and please do pray hard for me to get it this time!

I do wish to have a new environment for me to really concentrate fully in study.

Although form 6 now seems nice for me too ( beside those stuff that I cant really accept ), but I still prefer matriculation even it might in the jungle!

Well back to my form 6 life. I went for Sidang duty on Thursday - photography day.

Just one day duty only and I was totally exhausted + disappointed with those rude kids from lower forms!

I was still wearing the blue shirts but hell they made till me almost became uncontrollable and speak rude to them. Luckily at last the F words did not appear also =P

I am really feel like I am old now =(

My body still here pain there pain everywhere pain pain even the duty was two days ago TT

Stop about this super sad statement and we change it to be a happier tone =)

I watched the Royal Wedding yesterday and it's nice and AWESOME!

The whole ceremony was so so grand but it was still a bit boring with the super long procedures. Walked on the red carpet needed few mins also ==

Anyway, I like the environment, so greenish and the bride is beautiful!

The super sweet part were the kisses on the balcony as the ending =)

Anyway, those UK people amazed me with their super disciplinary!

I don't think it will happen in our country as well as other countries to be so gentle hurh?

Wish the couple stay sweet for forever =)

Ohya, I calculate my BMI and guess what? I am under normal weight =)

I am somehow so afraid that I got obesity =P

Do calculate it youself and it's simple!

Metric BMI Formula

BMI = ( Weight in Kilograms / ( Height in Meters x Height in Meters ) )

Underweight = <18.5
Normal weight = 18.5–24.9
Overweight = 25–29.9
Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater

150411 - Birthday

2011-04-15T09:39:00.000-07:00

献给，我最棒的你。

她，一个同桌四年的朋友。
她，一个交心的挚友。
她，一个在中一认识的高手。

缘分真是奇妙的东西，是它让我们相识、相知、相交。
两个本无渊源的人，就在那一霎那，开始踏入彼此的生活。
从互不认识到点头之交、从点点头中开始了帮交、从帮交到邻居、从邻居到莫逆之交，回头望去，原来这些都发生在短短的五年里。
五年说长不长，说短不短，但却足以让友情慢慢酝酿、发酵。

友谊就像拼图，
拼凑成不一样的我们、
拼凑着我们的回忆。
组成四人帮、成了同事、冷战时期等，
友情里经历了风风雨雨，
坚持下来，这一切稳固了我们的友谊。
不管风再强，我们也有屹立不倒的时候；
不管雨再大，我们也有雨过天晴的时刻。

有时候，付出和回报不能成相等。
我们一起笑过、哭过、疯过、吵过、怨过、努力过。
中间的酸甜苦辣，就是这友谊成长的印记。

倔强的我们。
我想过放弃，
放弃这段曾经倍受压力的友谊。
然而，心中却期待，
期待她的挽留。
倔强的我们，
却都不肯迈出那一小步。
后来，毫无行动下，
我们又回到了从前般，
也许，还真的
没有人，能取代她的位置。

她就是那么非一般。
有时候，她可以忘记我的一切；
有时候，却可以了解我的所有。
有时候，她能百般刁难；
有时候，却能百般顺从。
有时候，能不闻不问；
有时候，却关心备至。

别看她成天嘻嘻哈哈的;
其实，她也有落寞的时候。
别看她一副乐天派；
其实，她也有超级悲观的时候。
别看她男儿头，有时，哦不，是大多时候都粗粗鲁鲁的；
其实，她也有很女人的时刻。当然，前提是那是百年难得一见的……

友谊的一切一切，
不是三言两语所能表达；
正如我们一样，
两颗心的交流不是表面所见而已。

中学五年的生涯里，因为有你变得更璀璨。
中学生涯里，我庆幸有你！

小小孩 =P

十八岁的小孩，加油！

130411

2011-04-13T03:25:00.000-07:00

So I am exhausted with everything now. Tired for being me myself sometimes.

Whatever, I will done with it very very soon.

Overall, I havent feel the boring-ness to study all same 5 subjects now but who knows for days coming?

But well it is kinda tired to sit whole day in the class. I prefer walking sometimes =P

And stupid I got 3rd batch of my NS. Say bye ns =(

So today will be a short update for myself.

And ya, pic that I took at Penang last weekend.

Stay tuned for a more complete post. Forgive me for my laziness to blog =P

050411 - 清明

2011-04-05T04:09:00.000-07:00

嗅着那刺鼻的气味、

看着被熊熊烈火燃烧着的各类纸扎品，

心里想着的却是

在那遥远的你们。

这些真的能抵达你们手上吗？

这毋庸置疑，我也不敢质疑。

你们可好？

我想你们了！

300311 - F6 Summary

2011-03-30T04:37:00.000-07:00

Well, as everyone knows me go for pre f6 classes which is ongoing now.

Today is the 3rd day and finally i blog! I was unable to blog as I sick on yesterday night ( it's only the 2nd day! )

So, it's a review on these 3 days that I went through =)

Day 1

We were feeling so strange to back to school as most of the 'kbian cemerlang' looked at us like we are monster.

Me feeling totally odd as I am still wearing the blue prefect uniform ==

Anyway, that day was the opening ceremony for the anti-crime week aka minggu kpj.

The hm was delivering his speech for 30 mins plus and do you know what his 1st issue to come out?

Facing to all the lower sixers and asked : Why the girls not wearing yellow ribbon? You should be proud of yourself proud to be kbian cemerlang... Summarize 3000 words for that ==

After the long long speech, there was the so-called-VIP's turn for the speech. Another 30mins gone =(

After all I pretty like the drama that all the prefects junior did.. Sponge bob square pants team =P

We moved to the meeting room after that and ya there was another talk for us.

Counseling teachers were explaining all the local uni for us but sorry to say I gain nth much lol.

The day ends with nothing gained after all except for all the teachers kept telling us that f6 is harder and we must get 4A..

Day 2

Well well well, it was the 2nd day and unluckily it was the opening ceremony for all the Science and technology, Mathematics, Geography and Arts week =(

Again we sat at the assembly ground for long again. I wonder if sitting really let our butt become larger can we actually sue the school hurh?

Same procedure the hm's talk. He praised all the lower sixers for wearing the yellow ribbon and he said these to the upper sixers.

You should be proud of yourself!

I will NOT force you to wear the yellow ribbon but I want you to show your love to the school by yourself.

For those who are not wearing, I'll LET YOU OUT FROM THE SCHOOL.

So can you see how nice this hm is?

Anyway, he summarize his speech and it took only 15 mins! How glad was I that time!

But I was wrong, because the worst part coming.

After the assembly, all the lower sixers were called to the meeting rooms again for the speeches!

Hell, the hm talked 45mins this time TT

My half day gone with all the speeches.

Due to my oddness for wearing prefect uniform, all the teachers which asked us to join extra society were actually stared on me!

Hey, I am not necessary to join the prefect please! So embarrassing lol..

We managed to move to our class before the recess and guess what. The whole classroom was actually fulfilled with DUST! Super irritating.

Eco period after the recess and it's Pn Lena =)

Nothing much to comment about it but I do think I can do pretty well there =)

MUET period came after Eco and it's Ms Geraldine.

I was so so 'glad' to see her again. TT

Ohya, she is currently a PhD holder and she does being Muet examiner for the professional in uni. Surprising right?

I got sick after I went back home and hell, it was just the 2nd day! TT

Day 3

Did not go for assembly since raining.

Forget to say, Shi Yien was my deskmate =)

All the teachers started to teach and introduced us what are the topics we going to learn soon.

Nothing much again but still all the teachers insists on we should work harder and harder for f6 =(

Did not manage to meet Kevin and Jen Tim the whole day and I was wonder where they went during the recess =)

260311 - Future

2011-03-25T20:51:00.000-07:00

Got my result Wednesday and it's like Wow, FINALLY..

The result for me is already beyond my expectation but humans are greedy isn't it?

Frankly speaking, I am not 100% satisfy and ya with a bit of disappointment.

Opps, until now me still haven't announce my result hurh?

Here it is :

Malay - A-
English - A+
Chinese - A
Mathematics - A
Additional Mathematics - A-
History - A
Moral - A-
Chemistry - B
Biology - C+
Physics - C+

Feeling surprise for my science subject? Well, I can say that this time might be the highest score for my science sub since the first day I was in science stream.

I think I can get a pretty straight As if and only if I was in art stream. But it became dream d lol..

Somehow I felt so sorry to the three science teacher. They really helped me a lot but haiz, sorry teacher..

I remember that day me almost dropped my tears when I confront with Firdaus, my Physic teacher.

Sorry..

But well it's a past tense for me already and I am going forward d =]

Still remember I was asking help in the previous post that which path I should go?

Well, I decided =) I am going to the pre-form6 program starting next Monday.

It means I am back to school again next week =)

I change to art stream this time and it will be a new challenge for me.

I think and I believe I can handle it well =) God bless me!

In other hand, I applied for matriculation and hopefully I can get it.

Just because of I am waiting for the matriculation result which fall on May, I'll be wearing my old uniform (prefects' uniform) to school until May =)

Hopefully I still can fit in my old uniform well.

And I think I will be the only one wearing in such attire next Mon. Gosh, I am the odd one!

People, please please please dont ever misunderstand that I'll rejoin prefect, PLEASE!

After all, rejoin prefect? It's a matter for later.

Good luck for all 93s' ya!

190311 - 未来

2011-03-18T19:30:00.000-07:00

SPM 成绩在几天后就会揭晓了。

说不担心其实是骗人的，不过还真的担心不了那么多……

不管成绩到最后是好是坏，都是时候为自己的未来前进了。

接下来的路该怎么走？我还真的有点七上八下了。

原本已经盘算好的一切却因最近不断出现的变数给打乱了。我真的还能坚持到底吗？

我原来的计划是就回去那可怕的中学，完成我的中六文科生涯，再往我的理想领域迈进。

当然如果我很侥幸能够进入 matric，我就会往那里冲。

当然我进入 matric 就读文科班的几率是小于10个百分率的 ><

原因很简单啊，一，我的成绩不是那么得理想；二，我要从理科换到文科，在那里有可能吗？

还是回到现实比较好～

结果可能我还是回到中六比较好……

为什么要作这样的选择？很多人都会如此地说。

原本这个选择也还真的没什么问题的：妈妈希望我往这条路走，而往中六发展我也无需花费爸妈一堆的钱（虽然他们也无所谓），还有就是我不必那么早就决定我未来必须所在的领域。商业的领域过多，我不想现在就将自己局限在其中一个小小的领域……

再来，如果就读中六，我还可以去服兵役啊！我可真的不想在我七老八十才去……

还有我能以中六的成绩盖过我那可能是不堪入目的SPM成绩啊（最好不是!），而且我不必适应过于陌生的环境（愚蠢的理由）……

真的好多好多能够说服自己的理由哦……

当然，我心里也明白这不是一条好走的路。中六课程已不再是我能敷衍了事的了，不能在抱着玩的心态，何况我完全没有文科的基础啊……

学校那不可理喻的制度、无理的学校领导层，这些我也得做好准备。

你看，我真的有认真为我的未来盘算啊！

可是，最近一直出现很多反对的声音。

周遭的朋友都不是很鼓励自己回到那人间地狱。

我原本还真的能置之不理，我行我素的，可是又有人说了一些可怕的事实。

多半学校资深的中六老师已慢慢离开，所以如果我回去，可能是那些大我也不过那几岁、刚刚读完师训出来的老师教我。

好烦啊！我该闭关静思了！

一时兴起用华文打部落格，不是为了什么，别多想。

当然我还是认为不用华文，不是不爱华文。

140311 - Disaster

2011-03-14T07:52:00.000-07:00

Japan earthquake.

Tsunami.

Nuclear plant explosion.

Volcano eruption.

Everything happened just in few days.

Disaster let everything including human kind gone in just a minute.

The earth is now revenge on us for what we did?

2012 will be the doomsday?

We should not blame the God for being cruel, but we should blame ourselves for fool around..

Pray for Japan!

08311 - BORING

2011-03-08T00:40:00.000-08:00

Urgh, for few days d, doing nth at home and now I am super duper bored!

Anyone wanna help me please?

Watched anime and over using of the computer made me headache ==

Working is tiring, but issh, holidays kinda tiring too =X

Anway, happy international women's day to all the women =]

050311 - Horror Movie

2011-03-04T20:47:00.000-08:00

Abandoned my blog and everything for like one whole week just because of I AM SICK AGAIN!

Gosh man, my body becoming weaker and weaker and i got sick super easy now..

Where is my beloved health a? Please come back to me!

_________________________________________________________________________

Well, back to the topic, about horror movie.

Yesterday i went to Mid Valley with my dear for the Expo Fair aka pc fair if you dont know =]

Well, be prepared if you do wish to go the fair as those people will keep on telling you this and that and it's hard to escape! Someone like me still half-die mode, better dont go there ==

After the fair, we went to the cinema and I suggested to watch the Black Swan as it is recommended by a lot of people.

I insisted to watch this rated 18sx movie although someone dont want =P

And so i won and we grabbed the ticket and went for the movie.

Well, here comes my nightmare..

Wth, why no one told me that Black Swan is a horror movie? TT

And ya i got scare for few scenes when the actress hurt herself.. Damn disgusting and scary la!

Bt well cant deny that it's an awesome movie and the actress, Natalie Portman really did a good job. That's why she got Oscar =]

The movie shows us how suffer a ballerina is for the preparation of a grand show. The actress got two personality, the normal one and the dark one (sounds like Dr Jekyl and Mr Hide?)

Black Swan Movie Poster

Nina and her mother

Nina as the Black SwanNina realise sth strange

Nina eyes are in red

Synopsis : BLACK SWAN follows the story of Nina (Portman), a ballerina in a New York City ballet company whose life, like all those in her profession, is completely consumed with dance. She lives with her retired ballerina mother Erica (Barbara Hershey) who zealously supports her daughter’s professional ambition. When artistic director Thomas Leroy (Vincent Cassel) decides to replace prima ballerina Beth MacIntyre (Winona Ryder) for the opening production of their new season, Swan Lake, Nina is his first choice. But Nina has competition: a new dancer, Lily (Kunis), who impresses Leroy as well. Swan Lake requires a dancer who can play both the White Swan with innocence and grace, and the Black Swan, who represents guile and sensuality. Nina fits the White Swan role perfectly but Lily is the personification of the Black Swan. As the two young dancers expand their rivalry into a twisted friendship, Nina begins to get more in touch with her dark side with a recklessness that threatens to destroy her.
Cast : Natalie Portman, Vincent Cassel, Mila Kunis, Barbara Hershey, Winona Ryder
Rated : 3/5 [ i still dont like horror movie ]

But still no more horror movie for me please =[ I am kinda timid, i know ==

270211

2011-02-27T00:48:00.000-08:00

Cant online on the past few days as my computer DIED.

Well, on Thursday evening after the super heavy rain, my lovely sister was like usual switched on the computer.

And ya she realised that the modem could not function normally and so she re-started the computer and the disaster came =[

She COULDN'T ON THE COMPUTER AGAIN!

And so my dad acted as a hero and checked the whole computer like a doctor. ( he was more nervous than us as he wanna use ma =P )

Then my computer was given the died certificate ==

Wait wait and wait and finally the SUPERMAN aka technician came to my house on Saturday night and yeah my computer came alive again =]

Well, the man said the lightning caused all the problem. It passed through the phone line and reached till my modem and later on network adapter in the cpu..

That's why my modem and cpu died on the spot ==

But ya, luckily my motherboard got no injury from this incident otherwise my dad has to buy a new computer LOL..

So lesson on the day is be aware when it is a rainy day or else bad things gonna happen ='(

ps: my astro indicator died right after my computer is fix ==

230211

2011-02-23T08:04:00.000-08:00

Planned for an outing when me and Kevin had a chat last night =]

Since we all want to gather and gossip =]

Arranged everything with MinYen and Kevin in the last minute and act we were looking for more humans.

But sadly no one wanna join us ='(

We went to Umami and met EeLeen which just finish her work there ==

We chatted and played the game named "Happy Family".

Do you still remember how to play this game?

It did recall back our childhood memory and it really challenge our memorizing level ==

Kept on lose at first and they punished me by asking me to pay more for the fries that we ordered ==

Ohya, the black pepper fries was somehow a bit too spicy for me =[

After that we changed our venue to EeLeen house and i learned a new game.

We gambled and very UNLUCKILY i lost the most TT

Oh my god.. I'll never touch that in this year AGAIN! I promise!

Enjoyed the whole afternoon with them although it is nth beneficial to me but nvm..

No photo as MinYen did not bring her camera (kinda strange right?)

Do remember to date me out more but please no more gambling or else i will bankrupt very very soon ==

Love the moments when i am with you =]

210211

2011-02-21T01:10:00.000-08:00

Well starting today onwards, I AM JOBLESS =]

I am kinda weird as i feel a bit happy for it?!

Perhaps i do need time to rest and ya re-arrange myself and re-plan for my future.

But before all this, i have to enjoy my holidays till the max until the die die day when my results out =X

So i got myself a to do list :

Watch Doraemon.. I wanna do so since my spm ended but i got no time =[
Clean my room.. Ugrh so messy la my room for now and i'll clean it SOON =]
Done my handicraft.. Just wanna try out sth new =]
Learn simple cooking.. Mummy nagged me for this since long long long long time ago ==
Date all my dear.. Missing them a lot lol =P
Sleep more.. Although i slept lot but still i have a tired look ==

A lot more to be done but haha =]

I am here, my holidays!

200211

2011-02-20T00:24:00.000-08:00

TIRED

worry

angry

NERVOUS

frustrate

DISAPPOINT

SORRY

pity

sad

unhappy

REGRET

hurt

mad

tear

heart-broken

STRESS

LONELY

ISOLATE

helpless

I am emo now ='(

170211

2011-02-16T22:58:00.000-08:00

Enjoyed my lovely morning with my dear, MinYen =]

Chatted not much but enjoy spending time with her.

Dear, next time spend a day with you =]

Going to be fired very very soon and think so after this week i will be jobless d.

Not feeling sad perhaps i need holidays i think?

So ppl, date me starting next week please =]

I missed kinda lot of fun due to my work and now i am going to enjoy till the max when i got chance. But ya have to take care of my wallet ==

Have dozen of things to be done in my coming holidays till the day when my results out. *gonna suffer a lot after my result out...

Stay tuned for more updates ya =]

Ps : What color do you like?

Pps : Click please =]

140211

2011-02-13T08:19:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine guys =]

I am kinda lazy to update my blog recently although i have lot to share. My mind always tell me this : maybe later ><

And so i procrastinating my blogging and as return my blog reader becoming lesser..

This is called 自食其果 lol..

So i am going to update more frequently and ya stay tuned =]

Whatever, happy valentine to all no matter you are single or in a relationship =]

Enjoy reading with accompany of the song "My Love" from Lene Marlin.

I LOVE YOU =]

110211

2011-02-11T07:34:00.000-08:00

By Qiwan

040211

2011-02-03T09:37:00.000-08:00

Happy new year guys =P

Abandoned my blog for quite a period as i got no time for my dearest blog..

Well, i spent my time mostly on my work and ya my daily routine for these few weeks were only work and sleep =P

I am kinda enjoy working although it does not pay high but i do appreciate as all of my colleagues treat me nice!

Gonna blog about my job after i quit my job at the end of feb *they need no part-timer so i got fire..

A lot of new year resolutions for me but what i truly hope is that everyone that i know and i love will be healthy always =]

Hey guys, do wish you all having a blessed year and all the best throughout the rabbit year! Jump high together =]

Again, happy chinese new year ya =]

Qiwan =]

New Year Sales Part 1

2011-01-20T09:03:00.001-08:00

New Year Sales coming!

I am now helping my mum to promote on her home made biscuit =]

First item that i will be promoting today is the pineapple tarts. Well, does them attracts your attention? Your taste bud?

If yes, there is free sample as tester if and only if i could meet up with you =]

A jar of it contains about 40 pieces and you can get it from me for RM18 only!

I do think it is cheap and affordable for me as others shops sells them at RM22++. LOL.

If you have to purchase it in a huge amount, i do think cheaper price can be given. * ONLY FOR HUGE AMOUNT!

It tastes nice for sure and i can ensure that the produces are clean and safe to eat!

All the ingredients for the biscuit can get from any supermarket and neither flavouring nor colouring are added into the biscuit! Even the jam are home made too!

For those interested in doing order, please do contact me via my phone or facebook or even here =P

Ohya, I can be the driver and deliver them for you too!

For more info please do give me a call. Thanks for your attention!

080111

2011-01-07T09:12:00.000-08:00

Well, just to announce that i will be disappear for some times =]

Due to the working shift and my rest time =]

Do MISS me and ya i will be updating here for sure if and only if i have free time =]

Stay tuned ya!

imy =]

030111 - Happy Birthday

2011-01-03T20:45:00.000-08:00

Well, i am officially adult now.

I am legal to go for beer (although i hate beer), do anything that i want.

18 for me equals to end of my childhood and ya i am so OLD!

I had no more time for me to do like a small kid, i need to work hard for my life and my dream!

Good luck to myself =D

Back to yesterday, my BIG day, i would say it SUCKS!

Well, the whole day was like super unlucky for me and ya i felt annoy to it.

Firstly, I had insomnia on my birthday. I think i slept on 4 am if not mistaken. Sound crazy right?

Then, I went for my interview, luckily the process very smooth. Thanks God!

Due to i was not wearing my own shoes and what i wore was too big for my foot, ya my leg damn pain for the whole afternoon.

I went to the Bata shop to buy a new pair, the sales girl told me that they only had size 6,7 and 8. Me wearing 5 already super suffer. LOL.. My leg too small ==

After that, me decided to go home, and so i went to buy sushi =]

For that RM5.40 sushi, i lined up at the express counter for 30 mins ++..

Why? Well, i said i was bad luck right? When almost my turn, the whole jusco cashier system down! The cashier kept on restart their computer but it did not help a lot. This phenomena can say is 100 years once and yes i met with it!

When back to home, ya i almost cry. The feeling of being isolated and loneliness attack me.

The feeling of stay alone during birthday really suffer for me.

Anyway, i am still having a good birthday cause of all the wishes ya =]

Thanks guys!

This is for my so-called-bestie (Dont simply guess) :

我才发现原来我一直只是你的配角

演出时候我是无比得重要

落幕之后我却不占一席地

251210

2010-12-24T07:59:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!

Wishing you guys all the best in coming year ya =]

Waiting santa comes to my house now =P

231210

2010-12-22T09:46:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

MY SIS =]

Wish you all the best LOL~~

stop bully me!

171210

2010-12-16T23:39:00.000-08:00

Changed my blog layout and everything.

Wished to give my self a whole new starts.

Memories in 2010 in secondary school had come to an end.

A brand new start a brand new life =]

Looking for work currently. Any suggestion?

031210

2010-12-03T07:29:00.000-08:00

Last night i still wondering when will the PLKN announce about the batch of participants and all...

And yes this morning i waked by my dear for my ic number to check about it.

It's really my bad luck or what?

I cant get what i wanted for so long ><

I wanna be the first batch for that and yet it written there tahniah anda ditempatkan di kumpulan 2 atau 3...

I never thought of wanna skip it or postpone it as i do think it will be a nice experience for me.

But now, i do wish i never in it!

It spoil all my planning. ( Gosh, jeen vern i think i know how you feel d!)

Anyone know that is it possible to make my ns earlier?

God bless me...

261110

2010-11-26T03:39:00.000-08:00

站在承诺与责任的平台上，你的选择是何者？

不负责任，但守信用；

违背诺言，但负责任……

我迷茫于两者中，我失去了我所谓的坚持。

倘若是你，你会如何选择？

后记：我做了我的选择，一个我不能苟同的选择……

201110

2010-11-20T00:13:00.000-08:00

Good luck to all candidates for SPM and STPM =]

Gambateh and all the best!!

Man in My Life

2010-11-11T04:34:00.000-08:00

Due to the privacy policy, no photos will be uploaded for this post =D
I would post this in English as the main character graduated in English school and do not even know any Chinese words =P

When you feel it with your heart, you will realize LOVE is everywhere.

The man and his woman are the two most important people in my life for forever =]

Without them, without me.

Well, he love me always although he never said " I Love You" to me. [ If he said, it will frighten me too ]

He always take care of me no matter how tired is he, bacause he said i am his responsibility.

He gave me everything that i want and everything he managed to give me.

He the one neither dunwan me nor beat me.

He, my dad the only man in this world that love me that much.

He got no hobbies i think. Please do not tell me sleep and read newspaper can be hobbies =]

He is a bit too 'in' for me as he always grab the comp for me and has a sweet time with his facebook.

If those know me well will certainly know that me and him have a strange way to communicate.

We are not like father and daughter =]

I always pinch and punch him and he will do the same to me too.

I do not think that others will dare to do so to their father in public, but i did.

And he replied me a yell which everyone can hear.

See our strangeness?

Although we are a bit strange but i still can feel his love =]

I am those who scare of staying alone in late night as my experience taught me a lesson.

He is the one although feel very sleepy and tired but still willing to wait until me done my job just to accompany me.

That moment, i felt touch and yes i feel his love!

His birthday is around the corner but i do not think i can do much for him.

But, i wish him here with my sincere heart,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DADDY!

i love you too =]

051110

2010-11-05T02:05:00.000-07:00

Went to kl yesterday to accompany meng hern to buy presents for teachers.

Seriously he need a tour guide.

The process of so-called-shopping was quite smooth.

Bought all the things that we want and at least we did not over budget.

Meng hern throughout the whole journey was like a child, he kept yelling where is the puzzle? I want this i want that =]

It's not tiring for me but for the two boys i think they were dying.

Well, girls wont feel tired for shopping right?

Enjoy my yesterday a lot =]

Perhaps this was the last time for us to do so?

We going to graduate very soon, yup very soon, for only another 6 schooling days.

Time flies, yet i am still not get used with that.

How we will be after this one and only secondary life?

Anyway, at least i got no regret for my school life =]

291010

2010-10-29T01:24:00.000-07:00

站在这天枰上，我该怎么保持平衡？

加油

191010

2010-10-18T23:23:00.000-07:00

I AM OLD.

I felt so since dont know how long ago.

And now i am going to graduate soon. VERY SOON!

Ishh, i am OLD. TT

Nowadays, conflicts happen very easy around me.

Well, i am not too depress about it but i felt annoy.

In school, friends often showed with the emo faces due to many reasons especially for results.

Yup, i get used with that last time too.

At least me improved a lot since last time till now. LOL.

Me should not comment about why people emo and i am not saying others cant emo.

But for me, since we going to leave this place so soon, should we still be so emotion?

Last month already, is there still a point for you to be emotion alone and isolate the whole gang of your friends, your classmates and so on?

Few more weeks to go, our time to be together become lesser and lesser.

I cant guarantee that we still can meet up in future since some of us going to college, some not.

Not much time for us already, PLEASE do appreciate what you have now =]

Emo graduation? I prefer a happier one =]

SPM

2010-10-14T02:00:00.000-07:00

Gambateh to all the 5 formers!

It's the time for us to fight till the end!

061010

2010-10-05T23:27:00.000-07:00

一句，

就一句，

足够伤害我的心…… 朋友

011010

2010-10-01T04:50:00.000-07:00

走在雨里，

任由一点一滴的雨水拍打在自己的每一寸肌肤上。

Work not done! TT

190910

2010-09-19T07:01:00.000-07:00

Say BYE to flu ; Say HI to school

Lemon Cheese Cake

2010-09-14T05:18:00.000-07:00

Make this cheese cake last week and it tastes nice for me.

Give it a try as it is also =P

Feel free to drop comment =]

Ingredient :

3 teaspoons of gelatine dissolved in 250ml of boiling water.

1/2 tablespoons of grated lemon rind ( 柠檬皮碎）

1/4 cup of lemon juice

400g of sweetened condensed milk ( 淡奶）

240g of cream cheese ( Philadelphia Branded )

200g of fine sugar ( 细糖）

240g of sweet biscuit crumbs ( 甜饼干碎）

120g of melted butter

Directions :

1. Mix the biscuit crumbs with the melter butter and press into base of a a springform pan.

2. Chill the mixture in 1.

3. Dissolve gelatine in boiled water. Put it under room temperature for cooling.

4. Add lemon juice and grated lemon rind to the gelatine.

5. Beat the condensed milk until smooth.

6. Mix the cream cheese with fine sugar.

7. Mix the cheese mixture with gelatine mixture and condensed milk.

8. Pour the mixture onto the crumb base and chill in refrigerator for a night.

060910

2010-09-06T02:40:00.000-07:00

Mood = low low

Nothing much is done these days ==

Tomorrow going to try out making a cheese cake..

Wish it is nice enough =P